I will, i will, i will

“The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be” There was a church in Africa and everyone was excited to welcome a very well know guest speaker who [...]

My weekend with an Elephant and a Fly

i really had no idea what me and I Am would look like today. All i had from the weekend was a story i have read many times before but i couldn’t shake it all weekend. i think i have shared it in an email or possibly another blog, but oh well! my experience has [...]

My external meltdowns take place because my internal experiences cannot sustain them. Part #5

Many have said after reading these stories that i am very hard on myself. That could be, but if not me who then? It is so easy in today’s christian society to be mediocre. To receive salvation for the sole purpose of obtaining heaven. As if heaven were a destination or an end. On the way to [...]

My external meltdowns take place because my internal experiences cannot sustain them. Part #4

ed’s (my) outward visible (external) breakdown of self-control (meltdown) captures, power, or control (takes) precedence or priority (place) due to the fact that (because) ed’s (my) existing interior, heart (internal) practical wisdom gained from what ed has observed, encountered, or undergone (experiences)…  There was no real definition for cannot so i’m breaking it down. First the [...]

My external meltdowns take place because my internal experiences cannot sustain them. Part #3

Proverbs 3: 11-13 My son, do not despise or shrink from the chastening of the Lord [His correction by punishment or by subjection to suffering or trial]; neither be weary of or impatient about or loathe or abhor His reproof, For whom the Lord loves He corrects, even as a father corrects the son in [...]

My external meltdowns take place because my internal experience cannot sustain them. Part #2

Okay let’s pick up with the word place. Webster’s says, “a particular portion of space, whether of definite or indefinite extent.” It also says, give place to, to give precedence or priority to, to be succeeded or replaced by.” So God are you saying that i am giving place to the meltdowns? Without hesitation i got a [...]

My external meltdowns take place because my internal experience cannot sustain them. Part #1

As one of the thirteen Campus Pastors would say, “my, my, my, my, my!”  i’m not sure if i have to give her formal credit for those words or not but my policy has always been to give credit 3 times and then it’s yours. These words became an epiphany. Epiphany is a sudden, intuitive perception of or [...]