Unable to Live

Posted: September 29, 2011 in The Quote, Wandering Thoughts

“… keep growing quietly and seriously throughout your whole development; you cannot disturb it more rudely than by looking outward and expecting from OUTSIDE REPLIES to questions that only your INMOST feeling in your most HUSHED HOUR can perhaps answer. ― Rainer Maria Rilke

This guy has a way of stirring me up, not as a revelation but as a confirmation and he does it again with the quote above. Not to worry there will not be another week on it. Continuing where i left off. “which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. ” STOP!!  What are you talking about i would not be able to live them? If not me then who? I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. i am better than some and yes worse than others but come on, “Not be able to live them? It’s apparent that i initially took offense at these words because what i read it to say was that i don’t get it, i am not mature enough for the answers, i have not lived long enough. i calmed down and read them again in my usual fashion, one word at a time. One word jumped off the page as though it were bolded, underlined and in red so as to get my attention. “I would not be able to… LIVE… them. Now that changes perspective. It also makes sense when i mull it over, chew on it or meditate on it to make it more spiritual. i am struggling to live in what i know now so why do i think i need more. Rainer is right and i imagine God is just chuckling at this moment with some words like, “yes my son, read on, meditate some more, I love you but your just not ready for more “NOW.” Ephesians 2:2 Watch what God does, and then you do it, like children who learn proper behavior from their parents. Mostly what God does is love you. Keep company with him and learn a life of love. Observe how Christ loved us. His love was not cautious but extravagant. He didn’t love in order to get something from us but to give everything of himself to us. Love like that. my gut tells me that in those words lies part of why i have unresolved issues and questions of the heart.

And the point is, to live everything. Yes that is the point to “LIVE” not just exist. LIVE EVERYTHING, not just observe everything. Live: to practice, represent, or exhibit in one’s life: what i have been exhibiting is existence, observation. Ephesians 5:10 And try to learn [in your experience] what is pleasing to the Lord [let your lives be constant proofs of what is most acceptable to Him].Take no part in and have no fellowship with the fruitless deeds and enterprises of darkness, but instead [let your lives be so in contrast as to] expose and reprove and convict them. And how about counting it as all joy? James 1:2-4 Consider it wholly joyful, my brethren, whenever you are enveloped in or encounter (unresolved issues) trials of any sort or fall into various temptations. Be assured and understand that the trial and proving of your faith bring out endurance and steadfastness and patience ( Be patient toward unresolved issues). But let endurance and steadfastness and patience have full play and do a thorough work, so that you may be [people] perfectly and fully developed [with no defects], lacking in nothing.then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.”

“Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.” Live along some distant day into the answer.

Then, i like David asked, What am I doing in the meantime, Lord? Hoping, that’s what I’m doing.. hoping. I recently realized that the idea of me losing hope is not necessarily the case. It seems to be more of a seasonal change than lost hope. i am coming into a season change or i might say, a course adjustment. Jesus said, “I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you.” my questions and insistence on finding the answers have been just that, heavy and ill-fitting … because i have exposed my heart to things other than the word and sayings of God. In small but significant ways and some even under the guise of being Godly.

“Hear, ed my son, and receive my sayings, and the years of your life shall be many. I have taught you in the way of skillful and godly Wisdom [which is comprehensive insight into the ways and purposes of God]; I have led you in paths of uprightness. When you walk, your steps shall not be hampered [your path will be clear and open]; and when you run, you shall not stumble.” Proverbs 4:10-12

Matthew 11:29 Jesus says, “Walk with Me and work with Me — Watch how I do it.” He says, this is what I do, it’s important to me so it’s important for you. “Learn the unforced rhythms of grace.” Ranier captures these words knowingly or unknowingly when he says, “then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.”

Learn – Acquire experience – Acquire ability – Acquire skill

Unforced – Not resulting from undue effort.

Rhythms – A specific kind of such a pattern

Grace – favor rendered by one who need not do so

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