When The Time Comes

Posted: September 30, 2011 in The Quote, Wandering Thoughts

“I live not in dreams but in contemplation of a reality that is perhaps the future.” ―  Rainer Maria Rilke

Take note that is me. This is probably the most dramatic statement i have spoken about myself since doing these blogs. Maybe dramatic isn’t the word, perhaps clear, uncomplicated is a better choice. This is your father or your papa depending on who’s reading it. Ann Marie and i have been told ever since entering ministry that we were ahead of our time. It didn’t matter where we went it was always you’re ahead of your time. i didn’t understand the value of someone telling us that then, but perhaps they meant what Ranier says in the above quote. i am not a big dreamer, in fact i don’t have a dream. To me a dream is just a thought that didn’t get enough effort to become a reality. i spend no time contemplating anything that i don’t first see as a reality that, as Ranier says, is perhaps the future. Some people do nothing but dream and if that works for them, then that’s okay. i like to create realities and if i can’t create one, in the past i would search out a big one and become a part of it. Example, one day while walking along a pier in Seattle Washington we saw a portable oven that looked old and interesting. Turns out it was used in London England and the baked various things in it on the street. It had been converted to propane and was now used for cinnamon rolls. i looked at Ann Marie and said “i want that oven but i want to do baked potatoes in it. Having no money and i had no job as well annnnnnd…. the oven not being for sale could have caused me to dismiss the whole idea… or… i could have just dreamed about it. No we continued to call the man with the oven until one day he said yes. We found someone who thought the idea was a s good as we did or at least enough to loan us $10,000 dollars to make contemplation a reality. We opened London Oven Eatery and baked thousands of potatoes before we sold the business to a Tai Restaurant which kept the oven and the baked potatoes for years. Yea i know a Tia restaurant…. go figure it was agreat idea. No… i do not dream i contemplate realities that will and do occur in the future. It’s the God in me who is all the while effectually and fervently at work in me creating and energizing me to will and to do His good work. Contemplating realities is what Ann Marie and i do, the only question is which one will occur next.

Unfulfilled dreams can leave us without hope. The word says, “hope deferred makes the heart-sick.” Job 8:13 says That’s what happens to all who forget God… all their hopes come to nothing. i get tired, i get worn out, i get burned out when i forget God. Losing hope has nothing to do with the amount of time or work that i am doing, it’s the lack of relationship with God. When i say forget God, i don’t mean gone, no more belief in, it’s more like out of sight out of mind.

David said in Psalm 16:9 I’m happy from the inside out, and from the outside in, I’m firmly formed. Ann Marie asked me if i was happy. i let the silence linger long enough for me to avoid answering. It’s just one more question that i don’t have an answer for. Am i happy has so many levels to it. Webster’s says, happy is delighted, pleased, or glad. A synonym of happy is contented. My answer is yes, yes i am relatively happy. Would i like some things to change or improve… some situations, absolutely.

i am to give my entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help me deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes. Not “NOW.” So ed… remember it’s not about you and it’s not about now, but when the time comes I will help you deal with whatever hard things come up. i am in a season of intentional focus to see what God is doing, where He is doing it and with whom He is doing it.  “then gradually, without noticing it,  i will live along some distant day into the answer.”

“It is always what I have already said: always the wish that you may find patience enough in yourself to endure, and simplicity enough to believe; that you may acquire more and more confidence in that which is difficult, and in your solitude among others. And for the rest, let life happen to you. Believe me: life is right, in any case.” ―  Rainer Maria Rilke

Life is right in any case when it’s life in Christ. Otherwise life can be very wrong.


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