Posted: August 5, 2013 in Quietness and Silence
Tags: , , , , , ,

Usually for me i don’t come out of times of silence with any more than the rest which comes as part of being in God’s presence. But every now and then i get a sense of something in the wings. i relate it to being pregnant or being the husband of one who is.

“A woman giving birth to a child has pain because her time has come; but when her baby is born she forgets the anguish because of her joy that a child is born into the world.”  John 16:21

Translation – ed giving birth to God’s plan has pain because his time has come; but when the plan is revealed ed forgets the anguish because of his joy that a God plan has been brought into the world.

Not being a woman i can’t express the entire journey in a way that a woman can, but being a father and having experienced the process from the sidelines i think most women would agree that it is the most intense experience we go through.

As a father there is the initial excitement when the word comes that “we” are pregnant.  The plans and dreams begin.  All i could see were the possibilities of what a baby was going to bring into my life.  Nothing i share will prepare you for the reality of it all – it’s experiential.

Everything was changing…my ideas that have been important to me, the way i related to those around me, my goals were adjusting, and i begin to understand that those who have not been on this journey really do not understand it all.

As the day got closer for the arrival, i was thrilled at the thought of seeing my little one, but also my inadequacies and doubts begins to take over…will i be able to handle it…will i make wise choices…will i have all the resources that i need…will i have enough love?

There is a time when all you can think of is “when is this baby going to come?” There is no peace until the baby is comes.  And… there is no turning back, the only way out is to finish the journey, whatever it takes.

Once i saw that babies face, the anguish, the fears, the hardships were quickly forgotten because they have entered my heart like nothing i have ever known.

This is very much what it’s like with finding and doing God’s will. If I am not willing to go through the process then I may not be equipped because God’s will is birthed through the Holy Spirit…its Jesus being brought forth from mankind over and over again.  Its the way He has chosen to advance His Kingdom…through weak and frail people that He fills with vision, with purpose, and makes them ready in His timing.

i must keep pressing through the anguish because once the plan or purpose has been birthed, nothing will fulfill my heart like the Son!

  1. The hardest part about being in labor is the waiting and the unknown.

    It’s interesting because I could easily say the same about my relationship with the Lord. Whether I’m trusting Him to open a door, looking for an answer to prayer, watching for confirmation, or approaching the next season in my life – the most challenging part is…the waiting and the unknown. Leah

  2. Theresa says:

    Thats exactly what we are experiencing… Labor pains. All my dreams have been about pregnancy and birthing so like you, I know its coming. But we are definitely feeling the labor and the anticipation of it all. It has not been easy.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s