Kaput… Done… Finished! Part 2

Posted: February 12, 2015 in Kaput... Done... Finished!
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So obviously not having taken my own advice i have a second time where i declared “I’m Done” and if i recall correctly i didn’t hide it like i did last time.

images-4There came a time when everything difficult, everything challenging, everything hurtful and you get the idea, that all the negative sides of everything all came into alignment at one time and place. The time was somewhere in 2005, the place… my life. It was a culmination of approximately 5 years. Again i’m not going to put you through the agony of recounting all the events, feelings, and emotions. i should have been better prepared because it was exactly as the word described it would be.

Let me start at Romans 8:35 where the question is asked “Who shall ever separate us from Christ’s love?” Then the author offers up a few suggestions to consider. “Shall suffering and affliction and tribulation? Absolutely… that’s why i was done! To much suffering, to many afflictions and far too much tribulation… for one guy to handle.

The author goes on and asks, “Or calamity and distress?” If calamity means grievous affliction, adversity, misery, and if distress means great pain, anxiety, sorrow, acute physical or mental suffering, then yes i had more than i could bear.

And if that wasn’t enough the author says what about, “persecution or hunger or destitution or peril or sword?” The only one of those four that i didn’t deal with was hunger. But what i didn’t suffer in hunger was made up for by a thousand times in persecution. And the sword thing…. i won’t go there.

Then the author says, ed “you are regarded and counted as sheep for the slaughter” and my response was “you got that right!”

i remember reading the next words of the author “Yet amid all these things ed, you are more than a conqueror” and my response was on what planet, or what dimension because you can’t be talking about me, right here and right now… no way! 

The verse goes on to say, “ed, your gaining a surpassing victory through Him Who loves you.” NO THANK YOU, I’M DONE! FINISHED, KAPUT!

Remember how i said in the first “I’m Done” that if your done with something then you must start something else or die? What was i going to replace my “i’m Done’ with? Alcohol could do it… right? Wrong, i’ve shared before about growing up with an alcoholic father and i can not forget how that worked out for him nor our family so alcohol is out, suicide is out… hum? i thought i had it. Drugs! No not illegal ones! i need some uppers or downers, anything that will take some of the real out of reality. i found out that many of the people i knew were on prescribed pills. Just as i never committed suicide (obviously) i didn’t do the pill thing and also just like the first time all the “stuff” changed and i moved on.

So what got me out of my second round of “I’m Done?” It was a strange sequence of events that led me to prayer. Not just casual prayer but focused, intentional prayer and the story is far to long and complicated to share at this time but what it boiled down to was the same thing that happened in my first “I’m Done.” Everyone of those things i spewed above were distractions, the things i saw when i took my eyes off God. You see… i was not persuaded beyond doubt… thus i declared “I’m Done.”

Romans 8:38-39 It is only when i am persuaded beyond doubt that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities, nor things impending and threatening nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

That my friend will keep you from making foolish demarcations like “I’m Done.” And again, if i had only listened to my own words there would not be a third post.


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