Life Is… Supposed To Be?

Posted: March 30, 2015 in Life Is...
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Ever felt lost? Alone? Frustrated? Scared? Unsure? Anxious? Trapped? Unfulfilled. Stuck in a dead-end job. Smothered by others expectations. Has there ever been a time when you didn’t have a clue what you wanted to do with your life and further that when it comes down to it you feel as thought you have no say in regards to it?

imagesBeen there… done that! Maybe not today or this week but not all that long ago. The worst part for me was that i was living the life that society and Christianity had always told me to live. They said it was the “right thing” to do.

i don’t know about you, but it turns out for me that, the “right thing” to do sucked the joy out of life. Perhaps that’s the epitome of becoming weary in well-doing?

Wasting my precious time doing things that i really didn’t want to be doing. Being afraid to express my uniqueness. Having fun on the weekends then dreading the upcoming week. Maybe you don’t have to imagine it at all, a few moments of satisfaction drowned out by a constant grind of activity?

Life should be… most anything other than what i’ve described above. i knew it could be and actually should be different, but i had no clue where to start. Mind you, i was a “Christian” and working full-time in ministry. But i spent my days wishing that things would change—that i could escape a life that didn’t seem to fit.

Forest Gump said, “My momma always said, Life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you’re gonna get.” That doesn’t sound so bad… if you like chocolate? But i know for a fact that i don’t care for many of the things inside the chocolates… such as bacon!

Am i to settle for a life that seems, somehow, to have just happened? That, in and of itself is ambiguous because nobody’s life has just happened. My life has been a series of choices, responses, actions, words etc., etc..

images-1I think most everyone has or maybe had an expectation of what our lives should be. From my daily mundane tasks to who i will become at some time in the future. Through-out my life i have had many ideas of what i want or thought i wanted from life. And when life doesn’t meet my expectations… i’m so disappointed even in small insignificant things. i can’t tell you how many times i have planned my days right down to the very last half-hour, but no matter how detailed, how perfectly calculated a day is planned, it seldom goes exactly as planned.

That’s not to say that every day is a disappointment. Not even close, especially since i have focused on not defining my days as good or bad days. Even on the days i need to be as perfectly put-together as possible, something is bound to occur that was not a part of my schedule. A train brings traffic to a stop. i find out that i forgot to put something on my calendar, a meeting goes longer than i anticipated, etc. And then let’s not forget that outside of these everyday things, there are the major life events that i think i have planned for but happen outside the parameters  that i have set for them. And then i find out that life or more importantly God has other plans.

Let me close today with two thoughts. First, i don’t want to get to the end of my life and find that i just lived the length of it. i want to have lived the width of it as well.

Secondly, Sometimes my expectations sell me short. Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. i wonder why i cling to my expectations, because the expected is just what keeps me steady. The expected’s just the beginning. The unexpected has been and still is what changes my life.

 

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  1. ldipascal says:

    Great post, Ed! Thank you for always being transparent and real in your writing. I love that about you and I¹m sure your readers do too. I noticed several great ³sticky statements² in your post that would be perfect to tweet on Twitter or post to Facebook with a link back to your post. These are my favorites:

    ³I don’t want to get to the end of my life and find that i just lived the length of it. i want to have lived the width of it as well.² ~ Dr Ed Peterson “Sometimes my expectations sell me short. Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected.² ~ Dr Ed Peterson ³The expected is just what keeps me steady Š The unexpected has been and still is what changes my life.² ~ Dr. Ed Peterson

    Blessings, Leah P.S. Any special birthday plans for Ann Marie tomorrow?

    From: me and I Am’s Blog Reply-To: me and I Am’s Blog Date: Monday, March 30, 2015 at 4:36 PM To: LEAH DIPASCAL Subject: [New post] Life IsŠ Supposed To Be?

    WordPress.com meandiam posted: “Ever felt lost? Alone? Frustrated? Scared? Unsure? Anxious? Trapped? Unfulfilled. Stuck in a dead-end job. Smothered by others expectations. Has there ever been a time when you didn¹t have a clue what you wanted to do with your life and further that when “

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