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If your like me there are many situations in my life that i am praying about and find myself waiting. i sometimes wonder why the answer hasn’t come yet? That’s why i’ve been sharing about “While i’m Waiting.

Here is one thing i know for certain, before God moves, i will wait. It may be a nano second or it may be years! Waiting is a crucial part of life and guess what, everybody gets to do it. The real question is not if i’ll wait, but rather how i’ll wait. I believe that how i wait, has a huge impact on how long i wait.

I have choices as to how i’ll wait. I will wait passively, or i’ll wait expectantly. If I am a passive person I hope something good will happen and i’m willing to sit around waiting to see if it does. After a short time, i give up, saying, “That’s it! I’ve waited and waited and nothing’s happened.” If I am a passive person I have a lot of wishbone and not much backbone!

I f I am an expectant person, I am hopeful, but I am believing the answer is just around the corner. my belief is not a passive thing. my hope is not deferred, my heart is not sick. my heart is full of hope, expecting the problem to be solved at any moment. I spend my days expecting. i may wait and wait, but suddenly what i’ve been waiting for happens.

Why would I wait for something I don’t expect or have hope in it coming to pass? By the same token why would I expect or hope for something if i’m not willing to wait for it? my waiting isn’t supposed to be spent sitting around passively hoping that something will happen sometime soon.

Once i’ve asked God to answer a question or solve a problem, i need to be eagerly awaiting His answer. i need to be serving actively, aggressively and expectantly. I  need to be worshiping actively, aggressively and expectantly. Having some experience in this I have found that if God answered right away, many times I would be ill-prepared to handle His solution.

Sometimes i find myself in horrible messes and it’s hard to imagine waiting one more second. But i need to keep waiting on God and trusting Him with a confident yet simple faith.

In the Bible Paul and Silas knew about waiting, and they waited well. Acts 16 tells the story of how they were attacked by a crowd, beaten and thrown in jail. Verse 24 says the jailer put them into the inner prison (the dungeon) and fastened their feet in the stocks. He was making sure they couldn’t escape. But about midnight, God showed up. Now it would have been nice if He’d come a little earlier, but Paul and Silas didn’t seem to mind—they just decided to start singing and began to worship the Lord. They began to wait on God.

Verses 25 & 26 say, “But about midnight, as Paul and Silas were praying and singing hymns of praise to God, and the [other] prisoners were listening to them, suddenly there was a great earthquake, so that the very foundations of the prison were shaken; and at once all the doors were opened and everyone’s shackles were unfastened.” God answered them suddenly!

So what am I doing today? Hebrews 10:36 (MSG.) If some enemies broke in and seized my goods, i’d let them go with a smile, knowing they couldn’t touch my real treasure. Nothing they did bothered me, nothing set me back. So i won’t throw it all away now. i was sure of yourselves then. It’s still a sure thing! But i need to stick it out, staying with God’s plan so i’ll be there for the promised completion. It won’t be long now, he’s on the way; he’ll show up most any minute. But i’m not a quitter who loses out. Oh, no! i’ll stay with it and survive, trusting all the way.


The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched – they must be felt with the heart. – Helen Keller

Verse 15 instructed me to let THE peace (soul harmony which comes) from Christ rule (act as umpire continually). i feel like i kinda cut short the rule part of my previous post. i used the noun definition of the word rule and today i want to define the word rule as a verb.

Rule: to control or direct; exercise dominating power, authority, or influence over,  govern, to rule the empire with severity, to decide or declare judicially or authoritatively, decree.

A verb is a word of action and to rule requires some tough action. If i am to let THE peace of Christ control, direct, dominate, decide, declare and decree, then it must be over something. His, thus being mine, ideal harmony is to control, direct, dominate, influence my anger, my patience, kindness, my insistence upon my own way, my sense of entitlement. This all leads back to Paul’s instructions that i am to aim, seek, hold onto, those things which are above so that THE peace of Christ will rule.

Okay that being said verse 15 continues by stating exactly where this is to take place, “in ed’s heart.” i get that, as i have attempted to do everything Paul has shared from my mind, from the idea of faking it til i make it, as form and function and i have fallen short or failed miserably every time. Sure there appears to be some success for a time but eventually i can not sustain it. That’s why my outer collapses exist, because my inner strength cannot sustain me. It’s head knowledge, logos, not heart knowledge, rehma.

To get it to my heart requires a revelation of God’s love for me and out of that one revelation i will have a correct response. This means that i must live in constant revelations of God’s love, always growing, moving forward, maturing and replacing darkness with more light. Colossians 3 is revealing God’s love for me in new ways, moving me forward, replacing my darkness with His light.

This letting “The” peace of Christ rule does not happen in my mind but it’s in my mind that i surrender the old garments and “Put on.” The amplified Bible describes what takes place in my heart. It’s deciding and settling with finality all questions that arise in my mind, in that peaceful state. It’s in my heart that my mind is put to rest with finality ALL the questions in my mind.

ed, let the peace (ideal harmony which comes) from Christ rule (act as umpire continually) in your heart [deciding and settling with finality all questions that arise in your mind, in that peaceful state].

Parents Beware

Posted: October 16, 2012 in 1 Up and 1 Down

The last thing I was expecting was to be doing another blog. It is a huge honor to be asked to do one, but it is a whole other thing when I have to ask to do another one. I felt strongly that I needed to post my learnings from yesterdays post. As you all know, yesterday was my son, Ethan’s post. He wrote it, its in his words, his capitalization and it is his thoughts. This being said, here I am thinking I have taught Ethan fundamental right from wrong. The truth about good vs. evil. What sin is, or isn’t.

I am like 50% of you. I hae been divorced. Unfortunately, Ethan is caught in the middle of this and although I would do it all over the same way, I can NOT tell you that every other Christmas morning, when my son is not with me to celebrate the birth of Jesus, open gifts, and have dinner I am not a hurting mother.

So, Vegas. Ethan has been to Vegas. Ethan’s experience with Vegas was with his biological father, his new wife and her two kids. That is all I know about the trip. At the time he returned he seemed to enjoy it.

I, also just returned from an annual  trip to Vegas that Greg and I do in October. I can see why Vegas was on his mind for this reason. Ethan is an only child in our home and does not like to share me for much.

Ethan’s view on Vegas is one of sin and filth. Mine is of a special, relaxing time with my husband.

Here in lies the thought for me asking to do this blog. Have I ever really gone through a list of what is/what isn’t sin with Ethan. There is a fine line. Just like I can not expect Ethan’s school teachers to teach him everything and I must get involved, I can not expect Ethan’s Sunday school teachers to teach everything. I must get involved.

Trust me when I say that yesterday’s blog will be a topic of conversation in my home. I will make sure that my son knows that #1 There is SIN everywhere, Seattle too, IF you want to find it , you will. #2 I am here to teach/help him….that goes for anything and everything, school and biblical.

If you ask your children “What is sinful?” what would they reply? Would they be right, or would you learn something too?

i have been thinking about my “Take Aways” from last Saturdays Onething Life. A ‘Take Away” is the practical application of a message or a word that is shared during our new Onething Life gatherings. On Saturday we heard a word from Andy Stanley on being in community and that it is vital to my Spiritual health.

One of my “Take Aways” was that, my friends determine the direction and quality of my life. i noted that i don’t do life with enemies, they are friends, for one reason or the other. i take the word friends very seriously, so i am not talking about just anybody i know. Some are because of where i work, while others are because it’s where i socialize. These are structured relationships. i listened to the word we heard about structured relationships at least 4 times and so i have been working on finding the right kind of relationships for some time. Onething Life is all about intentional living. i am very much aware that for the sake of my spiritual health i must find and enter into intentional, spiritual relationships. By the way you can go to www.onethinglife.com and watch the message.

The other “Take Away” for me was the idea that i gravitate toward acceptance… regardless of values. i disagreed with that the first two or three times i heard it, but finally realize that it’s true. For most of my life i have said that i didn’t care what people said or thought of me, but that’s not completely true. Specifically for the past 5 years i have tried to please people and find their acceptance of my thoughts and desires and please…. don’t ask me how that has worked. i like the next guy, enjoys a pat on the back or a word of thanks, yet i don’t die when i don’t get them, non the less i do expect them once in a while. That part about, regardless of values makes a huge difference. What i heard is that i am willing to put my values aside or at least compromise them to some degree in order to be accepted. This gets muddy as i consider the idea of acceptance, unity and not insisting on my own way. i have learned that i can disagree with someone and still have some kind of relationship with them, but, but, i must off-set those relationships with some like-minded relationships.

Jesus spent the day with the woman at the well, but didn’t go back day after day to have the same discussion over and over. He presented her with truth and opportunity to change her life. What she did after that was up to her. She had to go back to the same environment with the same people, including this man that she was with, who was not her husband and now figure out what to do with those relationships in light of this new relationship which told her to go and sin no more. Relationship, compromising values, truth or comfort, personal satisfaction or being found in Him.

Many times i read where Jesus leaves some form of structured relationship with people who do not think or believe the way He does, and finds a quiet place to spend time with His Father. He gives out and then takes in. i must find the same balance, giving out and then taking in. Being with people who i put into and then with people who put into me. As for acceptance… well that’s what i intend to intentionally work on, that my acceptance would come from the Father and that it would be enough. As for the values portion of it, i believe that His values would far out weigh mine and so i think i’m okay in doing life together with Him on that front.

In closing i realize that my “Take Aways” are not destinations to be reached in one week, they are lifestyle adjustments that i will be working on intentionally for the rest of my life. i am very fortunate to have some people in my life that i can begin with. For me it is easier to build upon that begin a new, so thank you to all those that are willing to take this journey. On the day when i do Take Aways the post will be a little different and for now i invite others that are doing Onething Life with me to share about their “Take Aways.” i am working on a better solution for doing this but i do not want time to slip away while doing so.

One last thought… if you think you are in relationship to change someone or help someone see the light, let me throw this thought out there. Consider how hard it is to change yourself and you’ll understand what little chance you have in trying to change others.

And Much More Thee

Posted: June 29, 2011 in 1 Up and 1 Down

This poem also came up under my search for information and it to captured my attention enough to use it today to share my thoughts in this post. While the title is Affliction i have chosen to rename it And Much More Thee. George can’t say a whole lot about it, but i think he would allow me the freedom to do so based on my revelation of what the poem is speaking. If no then i apologize to George and ask his forgiveness and promise not to do it again.

Affliction (IV) George Herbert (1593–1633)

Broken in pieces all asunder,
Lord, hunt me not,
A thing forgot,
Once a poor creature, now a wonder,
A wonder tortur’d in the space
Betwixt this world and that of grace.

My thoughts are all a case of knives,
Wounding my heart
With scatter’d smart,
As wat’ring pots give flowers their lives.
Nothing their fury can control,
While they do wound and prick my soul.

All my attendants are at strife,
Quitting their place
Unto my face:
Nothing performs the task of life:
The elements are let loose to fight,
And while I live, try out their right.

Oh help, my God! let not their plot
Kill them and me,
And also thee,
Who art my life: dissolve the knot,
As the sun scatters by his light
All the rebellions of the night.

Then shall those powers, which work for grief,
Enter thy pay,
And day by day
Labour thy praise, and my relief;
With care and courage building me,
Till I reach heav’n, and much more, thee.

In closing,  You/i are/am more sinful than you/i might ever imagine, but more loved than you/i could ever dream. –Rico Tice

Failure-Tolerant Leader

Posted: June 28, 2011 in 1 Up and 1 Down

While searching for some information for posting there was a title that caught my attention. “Failure-Tolerant Leader,” by Richard Farson and Ralph Keye. The article begins with a quote from IBM’s Thomas Watson, Sr.: “the fastest way to succeed is to double your failure rate.” Failure is a prerequisite of invention, which requires risk taking. Failure provides insights that aren’t normally gained from success. It’s one thing for leaders to address failure at the abstract level of corporate policies, but quite another to acknowledge failure at the personal level. For most employees, personal failure is an enormous threat that carries with it embarrassment, shame, and even the loss of your job. Worst of all, the stigma of failure breeds fear.

Failure-tolerant leaders  moves beyond simplistic definitions of success and failure, where the former is always positive and the latter is always negative. i believe there is such a thing as “successful failure.” Good leaders keep things in perspective. Don Shula, one of the winningest coaches in NFL history, remarked that he “didn’t get consumed by losses and didn’t get overwhelmed by successes.” Failure-tolerant leaders  empathize with employees by sharing their own failures and by accepting the mistakes of others. They replace a corporate culture of fierce competition with a culture of collaboration. A culture of collaboration… doing life together, community, a culture of collaberation.

All this began to make me think about what a “failure-tolerant Christian” might look like. Some of the most significant people in God’s story of redemption experienced extraordinary failures. Moses was a murderer, David an adulterer, Peter denied  even knowing Jesus, while Paul described himself as the “chief among sinners” for trying to destroy the church.

Paul describes a fierce struggle in his deeply divided self. He does things that he hates, and fails to do the good. He experiences covetous desires and sinful passions of every sort. Rather than doing the good he desires, he commits the evil he detests. With frustration he describes a “war” within him that makes him a “prisoner,” and confesses, “I do not understand what I do” (Romans 7:15, 23). Paul’s struggle is so intense that some interpreters think that he’s describing his pre-conversion life rather than a Christian experience.

Paul encourage me to embrace my struggles and failures rather than to suppress or deny them. That can be difficult when our communities don’t allow us to fail in the first place, or if they do, the  price of failure is condemnation rather than consolation. Christians are famous for throwing failures under the bus. Paul, writing from his own experience, reminds us that we all carry the gospel treasure in fragile vessels, and that none of us is worthy of or adequate to the task (2 Corinthians 2:16, 4:7). James says that “we all stumble in many ways” (James 3:2).

And so Paul asks: “Who will rescue me from this body of death?” (Romans 7:24). The word points to Jesus: “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, from I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light” (Matthew 11:25–30).

What If?

Posted: June 27, 2011 in 1 Up and 1 Down

It’s been ten days since my fingers, thoughts and spirit all came to the keyboard on my laptop. It was not for lack of thoughts but time was allowed to slip away on a very large project. This weekend Ann Marie and i did nothing on Sunday except watch a couple of movies and attempted some mindless rest. One movie was titled What if… ? The premise is similar to It’s A Wonderful Life. A person is unhappy with how life has appeared to work out and so he gets a divine opportunity to see life without him, but in this case he gets to see What if. His what if is marrying his high school sweetheart and going into the ministry or pursuing a career. Anyway 10 days of my life’s journey will never be read by my children or grandchildren.

i am not much of a what if person. i have never asked what if i had never married Ann Marie or what if i had married someone else. i think that’s because of my satisfaction with who we are as husband and wife. i have known from the day we met that we were meant to be and on Friday it will have been 39 years of marriage and another 3 years going together before that. High school sweethearts, she was 15 and i was 17. My mother had to sign for me to get married as i was under 21. No… no what ifs in this category.

i have been trying to think back over my working years and see if there is a what if to be found there? Not a one comes to mind. i have pretty much done whatever as far as working and providing a living. Another no what if… is in having my children. i have one son and one daughter, and have no regrets with either of them. i got to experience one of each and what a blessing they have been… for the most part. i have never met another child that i was more proud of than my two children. They have grown to be incredible in every way and i am very proud of what they are becoming as a husband, a wife, a mother, a father, and as people who are working to change this world for the better. Nope no what if there.

One of the biggest areas that i thought i might find a what if in, was with my relationship with God. i am in no way saying that i have always gotten it right or that i even came close to being all i was created to be… but… no what if. i can honestly say it just isn’t a question that i am familiar with. i guess it comes from not being afraid to live life out loud. Ann Marie and i have had a policy since our early years that we would have no secrets and to this day i am not aware of any secrets that i hold and my trust believes the same of her.This has spread into my life in general, i have no secrets, you don’t have to wonder what i am thinking or if i am upset with you. i will tell you, no secrets.

If given the opportunity to see some portion of my life lived out another way… i could not find what it would be. i have no desire to see what life without Ann Marie would be like. i have no thought of what life would be like without my children. i have no curiosity as to what other career i may have pursued and lastly i certainly have no desire to try life without God.

What if … i just stay grateful!

 

Grace and Peace – Basics

Posted: June 11, 2011 in 1 Up and 1 Down
All the art of living lies in a fine mingling of letting go and holding on. Henry Ellis
2 Peter 1:2-13

12 So I intend always to remind you about these things, although indeed you know them and are firm in the truth that [you] now [hold].

13 I think it right, as long as I am in this tabernacle (tent, body), to stir you up by way of remembrance,

i like Peter explains why i write about things that have been heard before – these things to me are the basics of Christian living.

For this reason I will not be negligent to remind myself and others of these things, though you know and are established in the present truth.

For this reason: Coming to the kingdom is so important, it is helpful and necessary for Peter to remind me always of the basics of the Christian life.

I will not be negligent to remind you always of these things, though you know: Even though his readers and mine as well know the truth, in light of what was at stake – eternal destiny – it is worth it to go over theses things again and again.

A sports team going for the championship will practice the same fundamentals over and over again. They do this, even thought they know the techniques, because they know what is at stake. i as a Christian should never get tired hearing the basics of the Christian life. i should rejoice every time Jesus Christ and His gospel and plan for my life is preached.

Established in the present truth: Established is the same word translated strengthen in Luke 22:32, when Jesus told Peter “when you have returned to Me, strengthen your brethren.” Here, Peter fulfills that command of Jesus. He will establish and strengthen me by reminding me of the basics of the Christian life.

2. (13-14) The urgency in Peter’s heart and mine is this… I think it is right, as long as I am in this tent, to stir up myself and others by reminding myself and others, knowing that shortly I must put off my tent, just as our Lord Jesus Christ showed me.

I think it is right: Because of what is at stake, Peter knows it is right to remind people constantly, especially because he knows that the days of his earthly life are soon coming to an end. Shortly I must put off my tent: Peter considered his body no more than a tent. A tent is a temporary place to live. Tents should
be taken care of, but you wouldn’t invest large resources into fixing up a tent… unless your my wife, Ann Marie. You save your real resources for a more permanent place to live. My more permanent place to live is heaven, and i should invest more in heaven than in my tent.

c. How did Peter know that shortly I must put off my tent? Perhaps it was because Peter was simply getting old, just as i am. Perhaps it was because the flames of persecution were getting hotter around him. Church history tells us that Peter did die a martyr, just as our Lord Jesus Christ showed him (John 21:18-19).

This shows that Peter believed that the prophetic words of Jesus were to be fulfilled literally. Jesus showed Peter that he would die a martyr, and he believed it – even if he might have wished it were only symbolic.

i personally am not looking to die as a martyr, but i believe i would if it was required. i am speaking cautiously as i am not looking to be tested on this matter.

Here is the test to find whether your mission on Earth is finished: if you’re alive, it isn’t. Richard Bach

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Will…

Posted: December 31, 2010 in 1 Up and 1 Down

Wisdom is knowing what to do next, Skill is knowing how to do it, and virtue is doing it. David Starr Jordan

Virtue is doing it. Virtue: moral excellence, goodness, righteousness, conformity of one’s life and conduct to moral and ethical principles, an order of angels.

But if i lack the will? i have pondered and shared these words, “it’s that you don’t have the will,” with those close to me. i guess i was hoping that one of them would console me in some way. i have no clue as to why i need consoling as i don’t even know what these words are saying to me. They could be good words. Words of encouragement. Similar to a month or so ago when i realized that God sometimes reveals things to me just for me to realize how much i’ve grown.

One of my thoughts has been that in saying i don’t have the will would really be said, “i don’t have THE will.”  THE being His, will. Or perhaps it’s that i don’t have the will of my own self? Maybe He is just letting me know that i have surrendered my will and so i don’t have it.

What is will? My initial thoughts went to God and His choice to give me free will. How different would life be without free will. Webster’s says, will is to decide, bring about, or attempt to effect or bring about by an act of the will. Well… that may just be the reason i am looking at these words. i have purposed by God’s leading i think not to attempt or bring about, or effect, by an act of my will. Not out of frustration or depression or feelings of failure but because i can not make anyone do anything or take any one with me. Not meaning that i’m going somewhere that no one else is.

i believe that “will” is a gift. Possibly the greatest gift that God gave and continues to give me? i say possibly so that i am not taken out and shoot for those words. To me will encompasses salvation, grace, mercy love forgiveness etc., etc. i make mistakes because of my will, He allows me to keep my will and gives through, wisdom, knowledge and revelation of Him. i fail and He leaves me with my will. He’s not the kind of parent that i have been when my children exerted their will which caused a problem for them and or others. i am reminded of my three-year old grandson last week and how he exerted his will to hit me with a toy sword. I took away the toy which in my mind was taking away his will and i’m now aware i was just taking away the toy and no more. His will to hit was not removed as moments later he found another tool to hit with. my time is better spent teaching him how to direct his will to more fruitful things.
 
i surrender my will to Him and He gives it back to me with so much more within it. He also has a will and He freely uses His will to bless me, to love me, to forgive me. So yes, am thankful for “will.” Communism is an example of someone thinking their will is better than others. There is my will, others will, and His will.
 
To will is not enough for me, i must “BE” in Him to be able to “WiLL” for His glory and honor. “BE” in His “WILL” to decide or determine what my “WILL” will be counted for.
 
As i write today i am hearing Oprah interview the author of the Harry Potter books in the back ground. She said this, and i think it expresses my feelings for this year and… and… possibly is the answer to this skill and will thing. They were talking about Michael Jackson and how big his Thriller record was. They went on to say that it was bigger than anything that had ever been done, so big that it changed the music world forever. They said that Micheal Jackson spent the rest of his life trying to duplicate that success, to that degree. This year i have realized that someone moved my cheese and i can’t get what i called “MY” old cheese back. i may never host a radio show again. i may never do television again. i may never be on a mega church staff again. i may never be a traveling speaker again. i may never do any of the things i have done in the past. Moses is dead and Joshua is now the leader. The past is the past. But for me the future is where i want to be. It is true that i have far less will for far fewer things than in the past.
 
I can only hope that, “i don’t have the will,” means that i don’t have the desire or the determination to influence by exerting my will or what would seem to be in my power. i am hoping that these words are a confirmation of my “Being” verses my doing. It’s been said, “boys will be boys.” To me “God will be God.” He is habitually disposed and inclined to make Himself clear to me.

Matthew 17:20 He said to them, Because of the littleness of your faith [that is, your lack of firmly relying trust]. For truly I say to you, if you have faith [that is living] like a grain of mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, Move from here to yonder place, and it will move; and nothing will be impossible to you.

i really must get the story behind Jesus words here. i am going up to verse 14 where it says, And when they approached the multitude, a man came up to Him, kneeling before Him and saying, Lord, do pity and have mercy on my son, for he has epilepsy and he suffers terribly; for frequently he falls into the fire and many times into the water. And I brought him to Your disciples, and they were not able to cure him. And Jesus answered, O you unbelieving (warped, wayward, rebellious) and thoroughly perverse generation! How long am I to remain with you? How long am I to bear with you? Bring him here to Me.

This does not sound to me like the warm fuzzy side of Jesus. Name calling? Even though it was true? i relate very well to all these words, not because i am so perfect but because i am not. When He gets done describing what He sees in these people He then asks, “HOW LONG AM I TO REMAIN WITH YOU? STOP! Is Jesus is being truly man? Or is He expressing His somewhat frustrating knowledge of the lack of time for Him to teach mankind what they must know. What about these words? How long am I to bear with you?” Do i hear a bit of frustration? If i were to speak those exact words to most anyone i know, they would be hurt. Unfortunately i imagine Jesus speaking those words to me and in a not so warm tone when i consistently fall short. Notice i said imagine.  Then,Bring him here to Me.”  Is Jesus saying, “never mind i’ll do it myself?” i do that so many times… because sometimes it’s just easier. No matter, just wondering. The task gets done. And Jesus rebuked the demon, and it came out of him, and the boy was cured instantly. Then the disciples came to Jesus and asked privately, Why could we not drive it out? And then in our verse of the day Jesus answers the disciples. And continues in verse 21, “but this kind does not go out except by prayer and fasting.” It’s almost as though He was softening His previous words which seem much harsher.

Every aspect about God is rooted in an action of faith. James 2:16-17 says, And one of you says to him, Good-bye! Keep [yourself] warm and well fed, without giving him the necessities for the body, what good does that do? So also faith, if it does not have works (deeds and actions of obedience to back it up), by itself is destitute of power (inoperative, dead).

Hebrews 11:6 says, “It’s impossible to please God apart from faith. And why? Because anyone who wants to approach God must believe both that he exists and that he cares enough to respond to those who seek him.”

There is weak and strong faith. Romans 14:1-3 says, ” Accept the one whose faith is weak, without quarreling over disputable matters. One person’s faith allows them to eat anything, but another, whose faith is weak, eats only vegetables. The one who eats everything must not treat with contempt the one who does not, and the one who does not eat everything must not judge the one who does, for God has accepted them.”

Faith!! It doesn’t come naturally or easily as Hebrews 11:39-40 says about the great men of God in what is called the Faith chapter. “And all of these, though they won divine approval by [means of] their faith, did not receive the fulfillment of what was promised,” Why? Because God had us in mind and had something better and greater in view for us, so that they [these heroes and heroines of faith] should not come to perfection apart from us [before we could join them].”

Manny keep on keeping on in your quest. You have the answers you need today and are fully equipped but they make no sense at this time. The harvest and understanding will be made known to you when I AM desires it for you. You would not understand all that would come to you if He was to reveal all that you have asked. Stay close with those of like mind so they may support and hold up your arms when you get tired. Trust and rely upon them. Today, i can only give you my take on all this. It’s not about quantity of faith but quality is everything and of that i am fairly certain. Consistency will vary with each person and more directly with each minute of every day and of that i am again fairly certain. Of how much is required and what determines the results of faith, i am fairly uncertain. i believe it is personal to every person. Sometimes my faith works for others, i think? Sometimes not so much. i didn’t say much about Jesus words, “but this kind does not go out except by prayer and fasting.” Seems to me that these are the works that must accompany faith sometimes. Then on other times it’s the more… i can’t find the word, i keep coming back to practical or physical but i would not want to imply that prayer and fasting are not practical nor physical.  And one of you says to him, Good-bye! Keep [yourself] warm and well fed, without giving him the necessities for the body, what good does that do?