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Mellifluous – But God!

Posted: October 15, 2010 in Mellifluous

While traveling a week or so ago we saw the word “GOD” written in the sky. There was no plane flying anywhere that we could see. Now the senses say that there must have been a plane… right? Ann Marie took a picture and sent it out to several. The first response came almost immediately. It was an attempt to explain what we saw. i responded quickly by saying, “How quickly we dismiss the supernatural! What i meant was, why couldn’t it have been placed there by the finger tip of God? Is that a stretch for Him to do… or us to conceive?

So i send out what i thought would be the final post to this series and instantly i hear, “you are so quick to dismiss.” Of course i had to respond. “i’m not dismissing, i’m just done. i have played the last song and i have interceded for the  final person.” No i didn’t ask God if i was done it just seemed, well like a logical conclusion. “You are dismissing!” “I have more for you and you are equipped for what i desire you to do.” I honestly had no clue! Then as i was sitting and actually trying to occupy my mind so as to not get caught up in some stuff, and so i emptied my pockets.

A few days ago Ann Marie gave me a sheet of paper which recorded the names of those that were in another one of our gatherings only this time it revealed a favorite verse for each of them. Honestly i stuck it in my pocket and thought no more about it and wouldn’t have until i decided to clean out my pocket which serves well as a temporary file cabinet.  

Now this paper seems to have some significance. It seems that i am to now share these verses and start the process in some form or fashion all over again. i am to take the verse or verses each day and pray in agreement with the person or persons using their verse. i can tell you that as of right now i have no thought as to what this will or is to look like. Eighteen days or one day? 

i can tell you that today is the least likely day that i want to do this. Not because i don’t care about them but i have “stuff” that involves me and my walk through this world. Okay so it’s “people stuff!” Can’t this day just be about me? Can’t it just for once be about now? i know, i know, i know! Ask a wrong question and i get a wrong answer. BUT GOD! A big thanks to Ann Marie for those two words. That was sarcasm if you didn’t catch it. BUT GOD! my stuff, “BUT GOD!” my people stuff, “BUT GOD!”

He says, “But ed, I AM!” Today’s song is I Am and was submitted by I Am!!

01 – I Am

I am the maker of the Heavens
I am the bright and morning star
I am the breath of all Creation
Who always was
And is to come

I am the One who walked on water
I am the One who calmed the seas
I am the miracles and wonders
So come and see
And follow me
You will know
I am the fount of living water
The risen Son of man
The healer of the broken
And when you cry
I am your savior and redeemer
Who bore the sins of man
The author and perfecter
Beginning and the end
I am

I am the spirit deep inside you
I am the word upon your heart
I am the One who even knew you
Before your birth
Before you were

Before the Earth (I am)
The universe (I am)
In every heart (I am)
Oh, where you are (I am)
The Lord of love (I am)
The King of Kings (I am)
The Holy lamb (I am)
Above all things

Yes, I am almighty God your father
The risen son of man
The healer of the broken
And when you cry
I am your savior and redeemer
Who bore the sins of man
The author and perfecter
Beginning and the end
I am


Mellifluous – The Song of Songs!

Posted: October 14, 2010 in Mellifluous

It is better to ask questions and seem foolish than to not ask questions and be stupid. Yesterday i was just asking myself questions. Always know that, i am not trying to gather support for my thoughts so when one of them seems to be out there just disregard it.

While i did not resolve my question i did find thoughts and direction toward that end. As i drove into the prayer center this morning one of my favorite songs began playing. It’s called Word of God Speak. Immediately i asked whats the difference between Word of God Speak and Come as You Promised? None that i could come up with. So where di yesterdays question come from? Not a clue! Word of God speak… He has, He is and He will and without me asking Him to but none the less i speak those words. Word of God speak as though He isn’t? So to keep this simple i see no difference in the two songs. They are written, sung and minister to those whose hearts are turned toward God and desire more of Him. David cried out to God for what would seem to be the obvious and God called him a man after His own heart. So…. i am moving on without question. If you ask a wrong question, you’ll get a wrong answer.

On another note before i get to today’s song. I entered the center today and immediately began shampooing carpets. My post was not yet done but the room had to be ready for prayer by 11. i began thinking of Brother Lawrence who disliked washing dishes. Actually he didn’t dislike it he just found it to be meaningless. It has been over tn years ago that i read his story and how he learned to worship God in whatever he was doing. Today i am applying that principal. Carpet shampooing is a mindless mundane task that needed to be done. I did it and thought nothing about but focused on what God would have me post today. Do i recommend this for everyone all the time? Well not normally. While the concept is one which we need to learn i have also Jesus example of getting up long before the sun rose and going to a far away place for silence and solitude with His Father. There is just one flaw. i am doing this where i am easily found and so found i was on several occasions. Oh well!

Twenty one days, covering twenty-one songs and twenty-one individuals and such variety of music styles as well as revealing information. Todays song is an introduction to what’s called the harp and bowl style of music. It’s actually prayer intertwined within the music. i heard this song prior to my first visit to IHOP (International House of Prayer) in Kansas City. i fell in love with it then and obviously it still holds a firm place in my heart 4 years later. It is actually a huge part of why i am involved in a prayer room today. The fact that Ann Marie chose this song as well  makes it all the better and on the last day of this series i get to intercede for my very best friend. i know that sounds strange, as though i don’t intercede for her other times, but today is focused just on her. It’s not intertwined with everyone else.

 The song is over 12 minutes long but i can listen to it over and over. It comes from The Book of the Song of Solomon and it covers chapters 1 and 2. It is intimate and the word mellifluous could have been created just for this song. The song is called Kiss Me.

01 Kiss Me

What a strange day this has been and it’s only 12:20pm! A day that God has made for sure but one where the foolish things are most definitely confounding the thought to be wise me. Yet in the midst of the strangeness i am hanging on to an element of peace that passes all understanding and doing so with great perseverance. Not sure that some portion of that perseverance isn’t being driven by some elements of fear, doubt and not wanting to experience an outward meltdown. So i am drawing from inward experiences to sustain me and doing well at the time of this post. Keeping in mind that there is no security in what God is doing or not doing, but only in who He is!

Mellifiluous –

Posted: October 13, 2010 in Mellifluous

The best laid plans of mice and ed. Here i thought today was the last song and i’d be wrapping up this series. NOT! i was driving into the Prayer center this morning and recalling each individual and their songs. Yes mentally recalling them, not reading them from a list. That’s when i know that something has made an impact on me. Recalling 21 individuals and their songs from my memory. Anyway i got all the way to yesterday and i had two people left over verse the one i had anticipated for today.

Today’s song is Come Like You Promised by Ascend the Hill. To be honest i am having difficulty with this song. Not because of the person, nor the words, nor the band, but the concept of the song. The idea that i am pleading for God to be faithful to His promise. Has He ever broken one? If He has promised to come and perform all that the song talks about will my singing it over and over to Him hurry Him up or, will He stick to His plan, purpose and His timing? It’s not as though He doesn’t want to come like He promised. What would be His reason for delaying? How about me? Yes maybe i am delaying Him because i have not completed the assignment of loving people who He predestined for me before i was born. In all actuality then i would not be delaying Him but simply fulfilling His destiny for me in His timing.

There is no doubt that the Lord did promise to come. There is no doubt for me that He will be faithful to the promise. But as for do not delay… well i need some more time to be the assignment that i was made and called to be and that simply put is “LOVE.” It is not my intent to tear the song apart but simply to say that if He is delaying and it is on my account, i’m okay with that. I’ll take every moment He will let me have. See there is that line that says for Him to come with judgement. i’m not quite ready for that judgement.

So while i will be interceding for this individual i won’t be able to listen and sing this song in the same way as some others. Before i forget sorry my beloved but your day will have to be tomorrow. NOW, do not hear what i am not saying!! It’s a great song, it’s me, who is trying to wrap my head around the concept of the song and pleading with God to do what He has already promised. Get this i walk into the prayer room and guess what’s playing. You got it!

1 Corinthians 1:9
God is faithful (reliable, trustworthy, and therefore ever true to His promise, and He can be depended on); by Him you were called into companionship and participation with His Son, Jesus Christ our Lord.

06 Come Like You Promised

Come Lord like You promised
Just like You said You would
Do not delay

Come with healing in Your touch
Come with fire in Your eyes
Just like You said You would
Come with grace and mercy
Come with judgment and might
Just like You said You would

Come riding on the wind
Through clouds of glory pierce the sky
Just like You said You would
Come and bring us back again
Lord come restore Your bride
Just like You said You would

In closing it’s a question of, am i disatisfied with His timing of when He intends to keep His promise? Because as i said, “i am completely convinced that He has been, is and will be faithful to His promises.

Zechariah 14:6
What a Day that will be! No more cold nights—in fact, no more nights! The Day is coming—the timing is God’s—when it will be continuous day. Every evening will be a fresh morning.


Acts 1:7
He told them, “You don’t get to know the time. Timing is the Father’s business. What you’ll get is the Holy Spirit. And when the Holy Spirit comes on you, you will be able to be my witnesses in Jerusalem, all over Judea and Samaria, even to the ends of the world.”

The title may cause a few to have to look back at the meaning of these two words. Actually when used together they may be over kill? Today’s song is Living To Intercede. It just occurred to me that as i come to the last of two songs that this one would be called Living to Intercede?  As i looked at both songs… well it’s obvious that i decided to do this song today and the other song tomorrow. Why you ask?  Because Ann Marie and i choose the same song and what better way to end tomorrow than by interceding for my best friend.

Over three weeks of posts and i can not express the full meaning of what this has meant to me. As with so many things in my life it is experiential. That just means i can not put into words what i have experienced. Sure i have shared bits and pieces but i have not come close to the depth of what started out as an off the cuff exercise. Now a look at the words of this song.

Living: active or thriving, vigorous, strong, burning or glowing, flowing freely, pertaining to, suitable for, or sufficient for existence or subsistence

To: used for expressing motion or direction toward a point

Intercede: to act or interpose in behalf of someone in difficulty or trouble, as by pleading or petition

i have attempted to be active, thriving, vigorous, strong, burning, glowing, flowing freely, suitable for, and sufficient for existence to be used for expressing motion and direction toward a point, to act or interpose on behalf of someone (each person who shared a song) in difficulty or trouble, by pleading and petitioning for them to God the Father.

06 – Living to Intercede 

He prays that my faith would not fail
He prays that my faith would not fail

He’s always living to intercede, yeah yeah yeah, yeah yeah yeah
He’s always living to intercede, yeah yeah yeah, yeah yeah yeah
He’s always living to intercede

There is a power that is greater, a force that is stronger
A power that is greater than my sin nature

It is God’s desire for me

I know if God is for me, who could be against me?
I know if God is for me, who could be against me?

I will lean into His prayer

Satan has asked to sift you as wheat
But I pray that your faith would not fail

Father, I desire, Father, I desire mercy
Father, I desire, Father, I desire mercy

The word i got here is this Job22:29 When they make [you] low, you will say, [There is] a lifting up; and the humble person He lifts up and saves. He will even deliver the one [for whom you intercede] who is not innocent; yes, he will be delivered through the cleanness of your hands.

As blameless and upright as Job had been–and God had so pronounced him–his misunderstood afflictions had caused him to get dangerously off-center. Instead of keeping his mind stayed on God and justifying Him, he is giving his whole thought to justifying himself. Instead of humility there is only self-righteousness. In one single chapter he uses pronouns referring to himself fifty times. But when he was able to see himself as God saw him, he loathed himself and repented “in dust and ashes” (Job 42:6).

Often who i am is different from who i should be. Ephesians 5 says, THEREFORE BE imitators of God [copy Him and follow His example], as well-beloved children [imitate their father].

Notice it does not say therefore do. It’s back to months ago when i looked at do verses be. i am to “BE” an imitator of God and thankfully the verse goes on to tell me how to “BE” that imitator. i am to walk in love, [esteeming and delighting in one another] as Christ loved us and gave Himself up for us, a slain offering and sacrifice to God [for you, so that it became] a sweet fragrance.

Walking in love… it’s not the answer but it is the assignment! yes it says esteeming and delighting in one another but those words are added in as part of the Amplified Bible. The actual words are as Christ Loved us and then it tells us that He GAVE HIMSELF FOR US. It goes on to say A SLAIN OFFERING  AND SACRIFICE. 

So that i am clear i’m looking at four key words.

Gave: to present voluntarily and without expecting compensation

Slain: to kill by violence, to destroy; extinguish.

Offering: something offered in worship or devotion, anything offered as a gift.

Sacrifice: the surrender or destruction of something prized or desirable for the sake of something considered as having a higher or more pressing claim.

Today’s song is titled Who I Am by Watermark. It’s because of Ephesians 5 that i am anybody other than a mass of sin. First verses 1 and 2 say, “therefore be.”  In verses 3 thru 8 i will use words from the song. His grace flows down and covers me. And covers me, and covers me, and covers me, and covers me. And covers me, and covers me, and covers me, and covers me.  i am grateful for verse 9 which leads me back to verses 1 and 2, while verses 10 and 11 encourage me to THEREFORE BE regardless of set backs. Verse 14 is especially meaningful. AWAKE O SLEEPER arise from the dead! i am sometimes found sleeping on my watch. Verses 15 thru 20 are what my watch is to consist of. For me… well i had to look at all the verses. They are below as well as the words to the song. It’s your call? Today’s post can be short and hopefully sweet or long and sweeter?

10 – Who Am I

3But immorality (sexual vice) and all impurity of lustful, rich, wasteful living] or greediness must not even be named among you, as is fitting and proper among saints (God’s consecrated people). Let there be no filthiness (obscenity, indecency) nor foolish and sinful (silly and corrupt) talk, nor coarse jesting, which are not fitting or becoming; but instead voice your thankfulness [to God].For be sure of this: that no person practicing sexual vice or impurity in thought or in life, or one who is covetous [who has lustful desire for the property of others and is greedy for gain]–for he [in effect] is an idolater–has any inheritance in the kingdom of Christ and of God.Let no one delude and deceive you with empty excuses and groundless arguments [for these sins], for through these things the wrath of God comes upon the sons of rebellion and disobedience.

9For the fruit (the effect, the product) of the Light or the Spirit [consists] in every form of kindly goodness, uprightness of heart, and trueness of life. 10 And try to learn [in your experience] what is pleasing to the Lord [let your lives be constant proofs of what is most acceptable to Him]. 11 Take no part in and have no fellowship with the fruitless deeds and enterprises of darkness, but instead [let your lives be so in contrast as to] expose and reprove and convict them.

 14Therefore He says, Awake, O sleeper, and arise from the dead, and Christ shall shine (make day dawn) upon you and give you light. 15Look carefully then how you walk! Live purposefully and worthily and accurately, not as the unwise and witless, but as wise (sensible, intelligent people),16Making the very most of the time [buying up each opportunity], because the days are evil. 17Therefore do not be vague and thoughtless and foolish, but understanding and firmly grasping what the will of the Lord is. 18And do not get drunk with wine, for that is debauchery; but ever be filled and stimulated with the [Holy] Spirit. 19Speak out to one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, offering praise with voices [and instruments] and making melody with all your heart to the Lord, 20At all times and for everything giving thanks in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ to God the Father

Over time you’ve healed so much in me
And I am living proof
That although my darkest hour had come
Your light could still shine through
And though at times it’s just enough to cast
A shadow on the wall
Well, I am grateful that you shine your light on me at all

Who am I that you would love me so gently?
Who am I that you would recognize my name?
Lord, who am I that you would speak to me so softly
Conversation with the love most high
Who am I?

Well, amazing grace how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost but now am found
Was blind, but now I see
And the more I sing that sweet old song the more I understand
That I do not comprehend this love that’s coming from your hand

Grace, grace, God’s grace
Grace that will pardon and cleanse within
Grace, grace, God’s grace
Grace that is greater than all our sin

Amazing grace, how sweet the sound
Amazing love, now flowing down
From hands and feet that were nailed to the tree
His grace flows down and covers me.

And covers me, and covers me, and covers me, and covers me
And covers me, and covers me, and covers me, and covers me
(with descant- Grace, grace, God’s grace)

Lord, who am I, yeah?

i can’t just move on regarding this thing called love. See i learned early on that while love could be defined by my parents as clothes on my back, food in my stomach and a roof over my head, it doesn’t work at all in any other circumstance. It’s not anyone elses responsibility to provide those things for me. But using my parents definition of love, it left me without any… so i thought. my next step was to come to the place where i didn’t need anyone, because i provided those elements for myself. Since then it has taken many years to overcome that. i have said before that when i got saved it was from me and my independence from anyone else including God. i thought at that time, i was doing just fine on my own. Psalm 103:6 has stuck with me so i must spend another day on this song and for this person, but it’s probably more for me than them. i think at this moment i am going to dissect the verse.

Psalm 103:6
God makes everything come out right; ( i believe that even though it doesn’t look like it and certainly doesn’t always feel like it.) he puts victims back on their feet. (i believe that as well but my struggle comes with the timing. While i know it’s not it does seem to be late.) He showed Moses how he went about his work, opened up his plans to all Israel. God is sheer mercy and grace; not easily angered, HE’S RICH IN LOVE. (That’s a very good thing but i’m not sure i fully comprehend just how rich in love He is. In fact i’m sure i don’t.) He doesn’t endlessly nag and scold, nor hold grudges forever. He doesn’t treat us as our sins deserve, nor pay us back in full for our wrongs. As high as heaven is over the earth, so strong is his love to those who fear him. And as far as sunrise is from sunset, he has separated us from our sins. As parents feel for their children, God feels for those who fear him. He knows us inside and out, keeps in mind that we’re made of mud. Men and women don’t live very long; like wildflowers they spring up and blossom, But a storm snuffs them out just as quickly, leaving nothing to show they were here. God’s love, though, is ever and always, eternally present to all who fear him, Making everything right for them and their children as they follow his Covenant ways and remember to do whatever he said.

i stopped dissecting because… to many words! What can i add to what has already be written. It’s clear and precise. i can live with this verse as a definition for what my loving others should look like. i am in no way saying it is easy but at least it gives me a goal to work toward. As Paul said, “I press toward the mark.”

01 – Your Love Is Strong

Ephesians 3:18 That you may have the power and be strong to apprehend and grasp with all the saints [God’s devoted people, the experience of that love] what is the breadth and length and height and depth [of it];

You will be able to tell by the following garbled words that i am still learning what love really is. It’s a struggle for me because love was shown to me as a child by a roof over my head, clothes on my back and food in my stomach. So anything other than that was not love. Be forewarned. i believe that the word love has been devalued by the use of it to mean something that it’s not. i personally won’t tell someone i love them if i don’t. It’s kind of like the word friends. What does it mean when you have 500 friends on your face book? To me they are not even acquaintances.

Words!! i guess i am a skeptic when it comes to believing someone… no most when they say they love me. Yes, i admit that through the years there have been those who said it but in my estimation did not live it. My estimation??? What was it that i quoted from Catherine Marshall yesterday? Humm. Something about forgiveness is releasing someone from my own personal judgements. Is my estimation a judgement? Probably so. i remember when Ann Marie and i had not been married very long when she said to me, “you never say i love you.” It was one of those times that my words should have been slow in coming but they weren’t. I responded, “no news is good news.” It has made for a cute little story over the years but there was nothing cute about it at the time. To this day i am LEARNING what love is.

Love for my family is simply put that i would die for them or so i believe. Truth is i have never had to so until that day i won’t know for sure. Love for a friend is simple. i would give anything i have for them and be there for them, at great cost to me and my family. Love for acquaintances is just as simple. i would do and be for them selectively. All others… i care for them as the moment requires but actual love… i’m not so sure using my own understanding of love. Perhaps i have a huge expectation of the word?  

In the past i have tied up my definition into a nice little package and hidden it away. That meant that even if someone wanted to love me they would have had no chance because they wouldn’t have found the package even if they wanted to. So if i don’t know what the definition of love is for a person i can’t really show them love… can i?

Today i use 1 Corinthians as my definition of love when giving it and receiving it. If it fits there then love can be real and shared. Hey i am not saying that i am right, i am pursuing. After all that “stuff” let me make it simple. There’s that simple word again. Out of a revelation of God’s love for me will come my correct response. At the close i found Psalm 103:6 and it gives me direction for this thing called love.

01 – Your Love Is Strong

Heavenly Father
You always amaze me
Let your kingdom come
In my world and in my life
You give me the food I need
To live through the day
And forgive me as I forgive
The people that wronged me
Lead me far from temptation
Deliver me from the evil one

I look out the window
The birds are composing
Not a note is out of tune
Or out of place
I look at the meadow
And stare at the flowers
Better dressed than any girl
On her wedding day

So why do I worry?
Why do I freak out?
God knows what I need
You know what I need

Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong

The kingdom of the heavens
Is now advancing
Invade my heart
Invade this broken town
The kingdom of the heavens
Is buried treasure
Will you sell yourself
To buy the one you’ve found?

Two things you told me
That you are strong
And you love me
Yes, you love me

Our God in heaven
Hallowed be
Thy name above all names
Your kingdom come
Your will be done
On earth as it is in heaven
Give us today our daily bread
Forgive us wicked sinners
Lead us far away from our vices
And deliver us from these prisons

Psalm 103:6
God makes everything come out right; he puts victims back on their feet. He showed Moses how he went about his work, opened up his plans to all Israel. God is sheer mercy and grace; not easily angered, HE’S RICH IN LOVE. He doesn’t endlessly nag and scold, nor hold grudges forever. He doesn’t treat us as our sins deserve, nor pay us back in full for our wrongs. As high as heaven is over the earth, so strong is his love to those who fear him. And as far as sunrise is from sunset, he has separated us from our sins. As parents feel for their children, God feels for those who fear him. He knows us inside and out, keeps in mind that we’re made of mud. Men and women don’t live very long; like wildflowers they spring up and blossom, But a storm snuffs them out just as quickly, leaving nothing to show they were here. God’s love, though, is ever and always, eternally present to all who fear him, Making everything right for them and their children as they follow his Covenant ways and remember to do whatever he said.

Mellifiluous – Hush!!

Posted: October 6, 2010 in Mellifluous

Such diversity!! The individuals who shared their songs and the songs themselves. Last night i shared about love, acceptance and forgiveness and how we as a group of individuals were making it our single purpose to achieve some level of success in doing just that. Loving people as a demonstration of our relationship with God.

1 John 3:14 We know that we have passed over out of death into Life by the fact that we love the brethren (our fellow Christians). He who does not love abides (remains, is held and kept continually) in [spiritual] death.

 The evidence that i am a child of God is my love for others. As a result of my love relationship then comes acceptance. i did not say comes license. If  all i communicate is personal rejection, no one will ever be around me long enough to be touched by God through me. In no way am i condoning the actions that are contrary to God’s word but God wrote it so He can administrate. my attention will be on what that looks like for me. Then following love and acceptance comes forgiveness. i like the way Catherine Marshall says it, “forgiveness is releasing someone from your own personal judgement.” Enough said.

 Ephesians 4:32 And become useful and helpful and kind to one another, tenderhearted (compassionate, understanding, loving-hearted), forgiving one another [readily and freely], as God in Christ forgave you.

Okay so as for today’s song… the connection as i hear it and read it comes from this person being a single mom and the choice to connect and do life together with this group of diverse people. i think the best way for me to participate in this song is to bold the words that speak to me. Again it’s a fun song, it has a rhythm that captures me. It lifts me up, makes me smile and so thank you for sharing your song. 

03 – Irene

Hush little baby baby don’t you cry
Daddy’s gonna sing you a lullaby
Everything’s gonna be alright
The Lord’s gonna answer your prayer tonight

Last night I had a dream you was the homecoming queen
Today you’re 18, happy birthday Irene
Quit school you had to drop out to raise your little child
Doesn’t seem to be anyone around
You got to reach up to touch rock bottom
The powers that be keep you downtrodden
Daughter of Zion, I heard your prayer
Just cast your cares and please beware of snakes
They come in all shapes and sizes
Tempt you, put scales on your eyelids
Don’t waste your sorrows
They’ll give you strength … tomorrow
Your Calvary’s about to come so
Keep your head up, don’t you ever let up
This storm will pass you be ready for the next one

Hey little girl with the pressures of the world on your shoulders
Don’t say that it’s over
I heard your prayers, just cast your cares
And I’ll be there so don’t you fear

Irene I carried you when you was too weak to walk
I took to you when you gave your heart to God
Faithful and true, that’s what I’ll always be to you
Believe in you, believe in Me and these mountains have to move
You have dreams and aspirations
I knew you before creation
Your foundation’s solid
I will give you a palace, restore your soul
You’ll be up for any challenge
Many storms are on the way better sharpen your faith
Count the cost, take up your cross
And wear it every day
Rest in Me and I will give you strength
Blessed is she, Irene who seeks my face

Father I’m stronger than when I first believed

Father i am stronger than yesterday. This person, this song, this relationship helps me to believe and to hope in the future you have for me. And causes me to be joyful, while in the process.

Mellifiluous – Priority!

Posted: October 5, 2010 in Mellifluous

i don’t want to forget why i’m listening to these songs and praying for these individuals. i am surprised at how quickly something can become ordinary or routine. i am afraid that i am more a part of society than i would care to admit. i am a part of the now generation. i hate standing in line for almost anything.  i want whatever it is “NOW.”

Now: at the present time or moment, without further delay; immediately; at once:

Todays song brings me to that place. The song is Take Me In by Kutlass. In the past few years the Tabernacle has been a topic of study for me. The song is about being taken in to the holy of holies. Past the outer courts. Past the brazen altar. Past the crowds of people. And past the priest who sing His praises. This… for me… does not happen in the blink of an eye as there is a significant journey to be taken. i am listing just a portion of the journey in an outline format so that i may make that journey through-out today with the hope of entering into the holy of holies by days end.

1.      Prayer in the courtyard

       a.      Brazen Alter – (Described in Ex 27:1-8)

               i.      Signifies God’s judgment

               ii.      All men are sinners therefore all men are under God’s judgment (Romans 3:23)

               iii.      In order to approach God we must resolve the issue of sin.

1. Israelites brought animal sacrifices to God (Genesis 46:1) [ Jacob Goes to Egypt ] So Israel set out with all that was his, and when he reached Beersheba, he offered sacrifices to the God of his father Isaac.

          a.      Lay hands on them

          b.      Transfer sin to them

          c.       Kill them

          d.      Pour out their blood

          e.       Burn their flesh to the Lord

2. The cross of Calvary – (Ephesians 1:7) In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, according to the riches of His grace.

           a.      Jesus Christ became our sacrifice

                      i.      He was without defect or sin

                      ii.      Took our sin

                      iii.      Took The cross

                      iv.      Broke His body

                      v.      Shed His blood

 As the song says, ” i hunger and thirst for His righteousness” while i am often thinking, “but can we hurry up because i have much to do.” Hows that working for me you ask? It’s not, and sadly it does explain my personal difficulty in having the inward strength to support my outward meltdowns. It also explains why my words do not live up to their potential. “Into the Holy Place requires me to leave the unholy place. i often try to enter the chamber (garden) to meet God while i am still emotionally out of breath. There is no shortcut that i have found to entering into this Holy place. I’ve looked. It’s not a certain room or specific time slot or anointed people that gets me there. Quite the opposite. Those things may or may not help. It’s simply my heart and my willingness to see the need to go there as a priority!

03 – Take Me In

Into the Holy Place
Past the brazen altar
Lord I want to see your face
Pass me by the crowds of people
And the Priests who sing your praise
I hunger and thirst for your righteousness
But it’s only found in one place

Take me into the holy of holies
Take me in by the blood of the lamb
Take me into the holy of holies
Take the coal, touch my lips, here I am

Mellifiluous – Together!

Posted: October 4, 2010 in Mellifluous

If one does away with the fact of the Resurrection, one also does away with the Cross, for both stand and fall together, and one would then have to find a new center for the whole message of the gospel. Hans Urs von Balthasar

That is the summary of my words today. So if at any point, what i say causes you to question or you do not understand what i’m saying go back to those first words and read no further.
Today’s song has probably gotten more attention and thought than all the rest. i have thought about it everyday since hearing it in the Friday gathering. There are many songs that speak to the theme of this song and there is no lack of preachers whom try to point people toward it’s message. The song is Lead me to the cross by Hillsong.

Here’s why the song has had my thoughts and PLEASE read carefully. While i am fully aware of the significance of the cross i am even more aware of the resurrection. Not to make light of what Jesus did on the cross . but any man can die on a cross while no man can raise up again in three days. For me Jesus death is important but the fact that He rose up offers me hope. Actually it’s more than hope it’s assurance that His name is above all other names.

i know some who go to the cross and are… still there. When we first opened the prayer room we would often get comments about not having a cross in the room. It wasn’t and still isn’t because we are ignoring the cross, but more that we have gone beyond the cross and focused on the resurrection. What if Jesus had not risen again on the third day? i would be looking at His death. i can’t imagine me choosing God under those circumstances.

i realize that trying to put into words all my thoughts on such an important topic in just one post is dangerous and actually impossible so please… those who know me don’t hear what i’m not saying. i personally would not want to be the one who would die by hanging on a cross. It was and still would be a cruel and harsh way to pour out blood and die for me. So… as for today, lead me to the cross. Without it there would have been no resurrection. When i fall short today or i find within me another part of me that needs to die, there is no better place to go and find forgiveness. i am then able to refocus on the resurrected Savior who guides me through each day.

Christ is the Son of God. He died to atone for men’s sin, and after three days rose again. This is the most important fact in the universe. I die believing in Christ. –Watchman Nee, (note found under his pillow, in prison, at his death).

06 – Lead Me To The Cross

Savior I come
Quiet my soul remember
Redemptions hill
Where Your blood was spilled
For my ransom
Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost

Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross

You were as I
Tempted and trialed
You are
Te word became flesh
Bore my sin and death
Now you’re risen

To your heart
To your heart
Lead me to your heart
Lead me to your heart

The nature of Christ’s salvation is woefully misrepresented by the present-day evangelist. He announces a Savior from Hell rather than a Savior from sin. And that is why so many are fatally deceived, for there are multitudes who wish to escape the Lake of fire who have no desire to be delivered from their carnality and worldliness. –Arthur W. Pink

Faithfulness to the past can be a kind of death above ground. Writing of the past is a resurrection; the past then lives in your words and you are free.
Jessamyn West