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hello I’m Dr. ed Peterson the host of the me and I Am post and podcast. Thank you for joining me on my journey of INTENTIONAL living. This is the conclusion of a three post series i began on Monday but for me this is the most important element as it contains the lessons learned thus giving me new tools for applying God’s word to all situations in my life. For whatever reason this series has no podcast as every time i recorded it and went to post it, it would erase. yet every night when I would do a test it would work fine. One of those things that makes you go hummmmmmm????

It has been my experience that soon after i have decided to surrender to a more God filled life and i have set my intentions on Him that i soon afterward feel as though my favor with God and man has evaporated! My great God experiences seem to dry up. In those times i’m not even able to consider spiritual things. This was one of those times and I can’t give you any specific reason for why it occurred.

In the past i have considered these type of moments as a great loss with regards to my relationship with God. In this situation i am thinking differently. i am recalling how blessed i have been in my relationship with Him and even though it may seem like or feel like it has ceased to exist, I know that it has not! Knowing that allows me to look at this whole situation as not a great loss but a great benefit.

Galatians 5 talks about this matter. “But I say, walk and live [habitually] in the [Holy] Spirit [responsive to and controlled and guided by the Spirit]; then you will certainly not gratify the cravings and desires of the flesh (of human nature without God).”

i heard the voice of the spirit… and the voice of my flesh… and made a choice of my own free will… gratify the cravings and desires… of my human nature without God. So you might be thinking that i’m making this to spiritual or that i’m being overly dramatic… perhaps just so i have something to post about? Since these posts and podcasts are about my personal life i assure you there is no lack of material.

So what did happen? The simple  answer… there was a battle. Two opposing thoughts, two opposing voices. Galatians 5:17 says, “ed’s desires of the flesh are opposed to the [Holy] Spirit, and the [desires of the] Spirit are opposed to ed’s flesh (godless human nature); for these are antagonistic to each other [continually withstanding and in conflict with each other], so that ed is not free but is prevented from doing what ed desires to do.”

my inner strength was not enough to defeat my outer collapse because as i read down further in Galatians 5 it explains that “the fruit of the [Holy] Spirit [the work which His presence within accomplishes] is love, joy (gladness), peace, patience (an even temper, forbearance), kindness, goodness (benevolence), faithfulness, Gentleness (meekness, humility), self-control (self-restraint). Against such things there is no law [that can bring a charge].”

Someone is saying that’s all well and good ed but you still haven’t explained what happened! Okay… It has been my experience that soon after i have decided to surrender to a more God filled life and i have set my intentions on Him that i soon afterward feel as though my favor with God and man has disappeared! Great God experiences seem to dry up. In those moments i’m not even able to talk about spiritual things. Heaven on earth is the farthest things from my mind which leaves me with little or no hope.

So now what? First i had to confess my actions of wrong doing and ask forgiveness of God. Through posting this i’m asking Ann Marie to also forgive me. Finally i’m asking each listener and reader for forgiveness as what i did was not according to the word. Is that necessary one may ask? Absolutely!  The word says, “to whom much is given much is expected.” i have been given this privilege and platform to share life with others. With that comes this responsibility, “ed is not to seek his (self) own good and advantage and profit , but [rather] each one of the other [let him seek the welfare of his neighbor].” 

If ed lives by the [Holy] Spirit, let ed also walk by the Spirit. [If by the Holy Spirit ed has his life in God, let ed go forward walking in line, ed’s conduct controlled by the Spirit.]

It’s now almost a week later and guess what? my want is back, my “in the moment” satisfaction is nowhere to be found. Self satisfaction, surrendering to self wants is fleeting. The struggle is now stronger because it had previous success. But… i can assure you that as of this moment the battle has already been won, the victory is mine and the Glory is God’s.

And those who belong to Christ Jesus (the Messiah) have crucified the flesh (the godless human nature) with its passions and appetites and desires.


Hello i’m Dr. Ed Peterson, the host of the me and I Am post and podcast. i’m glad you decided to join me today as i share with you about my journey of intentional living. Again before i start i must apologize that there is no podcast. After attempting to record 3 times… well, i gave up. Not sure what the issue is because when i tested it last night everything worked fine. You can come to your own conclusion… i’ll just leave it that, i’m not supposed to podcast it for whatever reason.

FranticIt was around 9 P.M., i was in for the night or so i thought. i had been to the store earlier and had rejected the idea of buying any of that “stuff”. Now, i know none of you have ever experienced this but i did. As i sat in my comfy recliner, watching mindless television, it hit me. “i…  want something,” meaning of course… a snack, something sweet, which i was now regretting having not purchased anything earlier. i remember thinking on the question of what i wanted as though it was worthy of great consideration.

The next thing i know i’m at the store, grabbing a cart and making my way down the isles. In the bakery section i loaded my cart with 4 pieces of chocolate cake which by the way had plenty of chocolate frosting covering them. i would have selected more but there was no carrot cake with vanilla crème frosting to be found. After further, careful consideration of countless other possibilities i decide on an almond coffee cake… for the next mornings breakfast of course, but knowing that i might have a slice tonight should my other items not fulfill my want. Continuing down the isles i looked left and right examining the shelves from top to bottom as though i was listening intently for something to call out my name. When i hit the ice cream freezers the choices were endless… which is why i ended up with three, Chocolate Fudge Brownie, Recesses Peanut Butter with Chocolate Chunks, and Vanilla Toffee Crunch. After a stroll down a few more isles again listening intently, i made my way to the check-out counter where the two clerks immediately began discussing their favorite deserts with me. Somewhere in their exuberant sharing the cashier says, “so your having a dessert fest?” and now there’s a  name to go with what i was doing.

Returning home i carefully laid out the selections buffet style making sure that each could be seen easily, but… there was no need to choose… the intention was clear… eat them all! And within an hour most everything was gone and within 24 hours it was all gone.

Now one might ask, why? What came over me? Why the extreme, especially for someone who has had relatively little in the way of sweets for over a year? A single five letter word… FLESH/self as in my mind, my will and my emotions. As clear as i spoke “i want” a still small voice inside me began resisting. At every isle the voice asked me, “are you sure you want to do this, what are you doing, what’s going on?” But not once, not for a second did i pause to consider the voice. i might as well of said, “shut up and leave me alone!”

i’m not sharing this because i’m proud of it, quite the opposite. Now please listen or read very carefully. i don’t regret the things i’ve done, i just regret the things i didn’t do when i had the chance. What i didn’t do when i had the chance was listen to the Spirit inside me, i didn’t do the wise thing for my health and i didn’t consider Ann Marie when i had the chance.  i brought her on this rampage with me, without any regard for her. She has been struggling to get back on track with her diet and i added to the struggle. 1 Corinthians 10:23 the verse i shared in the opening has a following verse which says, “Let no one then seek his own good and advantage and profit, but [rather] each one of the other [let him seek the welfare of his neighbor].” Now, eating all that was in no way for my own good, advantage or profit. my point here is that i did not seek the welfare of my neighbor, more specifically the welfare of my best friend, my wife. What example did i set for her? my misplaced encouragement… and let’s just leave it at that… misplaced.

So there you have it, “the story.” What you don’t have are the lessons learned which are the most important elements of these posts. As the verse above says, “let him/ed seek the welfare of his neighbor” i always want to be respectful of readers and listeners time and this is running longer than i anticipated. i am unable to cut it short as the lessons are what i will take with me as i move forward from this… and face new… challenges in living my life INTENTIONALLY for God.

Thank you for joining me on me and I Am and i look forward to you joining me in just one more wake up for the conclusion of this series on Permissible And/Or Profitable.


Hello I’m Dr. Ed Peterson the host of the meandIAM posts and podcasts. Todays title is Permissible… And/or Profitable…

After recording today’s podcast 5 times and each time while saving it, it disappeared, i have to assume that it just wasn’t meant to be. So i apologize for any inconvenience but here it is in print.

1 Corinthians 10:23 (AMP) says that, “All things are legitimate [permissible—and we are free to do anything we please], but not all things are helpful (expedient, profitable, and wholesome). All things are legitimate, but not all things are constructive [to character] and edifying [to spiritual life].”

GroceryQuestion? What do 4 slices of chocolate frosted cake, 3 pints of ice cream, and an almond coffee cake have in common? Yes, they all have calories. They are all sweets. No they are not all desserts all though i suppose the coffee cake could be a dessert depending on when you eat it? The answer is… flesh/self. It was actually a trick question, that is unless you had spent the last year growing INTENTIONALLY in relationship with God, and… had been on some type of fast the entire time which included the removal of sweets from your lifestyle.

It was around 9 P.M., i was in for the night or so i thought. i had been to the store earlier and had rejected the idea of buying any of that “stuff”. Now, i know none of you have ever experienced this but i did. As i sat in my comfy recliner, watching mindless television, it hit me. “i…  want something,” meaning of course… a snack, something sweet, which i was now regretting having not purchased anything earlier. i remember thinking on the question of what i wanted as though it was worthy of great consideration.

Want to hear more? At all curious what i did with my want? And how does 1 Corinthians 10:23 fit into this? You’ll have to join me in just two more wake-ups as my grandchildren would say when they are anticipating a visit from me. Two more wake ups and i’ll share the lessons learned while uncovering the questionable choices i made and the actions that resulted. So until two more wake ups be blessed and live life INTENTIONALLY!




i recently saw a program  where the police officer was directing a suspect to put down the rifle he had in his left hand. The suspect was compliant but the officer was so focused on the rifle that he didn’t see the suspect reach with his right hand for the handgun that was hidden in the small of his back.

i can easily miss some important things because of what i’ll call “tunnel vision.” I’m referring to relationships for todays information. Like the police man and the rifle i let current experiences narrow my vision. They said they loved me, but then… They told me constantly they cared, but when i needed them, where were they?

A wide receiver on a football team must have tunnel vision. He doesn’t have the luxury of thinking about crowd noise as the football spirals toward him. The batter as he concentrates on the baseball hurling toward the plate must use tunnel vision.

In 1994, Tom Amberly set a world record by making 2,750 free throws in a row. Here’s what’s amazing about this record:

  • He was not a professional basketball player, he was a foot doctor.
  • He was 71 at the time.
  • He did not miss number 2,751. The building manager shut off the lights and closed the gym.
  • According to Amberly, “The only thing limiting you is yourself….we are more limited by our beliefs than our ability.”

Tunnel vision in the right situation can be good, but in the wrong situation… it’s a disaster and here’s why… because what i focus on, gets bigger in my life. A man is so focused on getting ahead in his career that he neglects his family. A mother is devoted to her children at the expense of her relationship with her husband. A teenager emphasizes sports and lets the grades slip.

i get so busy counting the times where love wasn’t what it could or should have been that i lose the moments where it was exactly what i needed. i get so distracted remembering the times someone said they cared and it felt like they left me out to dry. All the while i forget to be grateful for the times they spent hours or days caring for me. i become so focused on me that there’s no time to miss the ones that have shared their lives with me, with integrity and sincerity, if only for a moment.

Romans 12:18 (AMP) If possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone.

This is not a command to be a doormat, but it does place a certain amount of responsibility for my relationships directly on me.

There is nothing more important than relationships and they are fleeting. There’s nothing wrong with counting stars but get a good look at the moon as well. People will disappoint me but people will also surprise me. Both situations are a part of life.

Why do I have to be the one to make the calls, send the cards or text a word of encouragement… or apologize… because God holds those stars and the moon in place. Each twinkle of a star or glimmer from the moon reminds me that there are those who love me, care for me and miss me. So, let’s make a call to someone who didn’t measure up as a star but glimmers as a ray of light from the moon.



So let me ask a question today. What does a child do when he sees something that frightens him? Does he stand there? Does he try to fight the thing. Nope, in fact, he’ll hardly look at the thing that frightens him. Rather, the child will quickly turn and run into the arms of his mother. So when did i get so macho? When hidingdid i make it my cause to stand my ground and be in a constant state of battle? If it’s not something trying to steal my finances then it’s someone personally attacking me. And let’s not forget the physical and mental challenges of just getting up in the morning. One gigantic fight!

I recently read the following and it made me think… but not until after a moment of frustration and even a little anger.

This is what i read. “You see, a close, intimate relationship to Christ should always be your soul’s only purpose.” No argument there. “Therefore, when you are tempted toward sin or toward outward distractions—no matter the time, no matter the place, nor the provocation—simply turn away from that sin. And as you turn, draw nearer to your Lord. It is that simple.

Seriously… It’s NOT that simple, YOU DON”T just turn away? And even if i could then what?

As i thought on this i was reminded of the story about Jesus from Matthew 4.

Then Jesus was led (guided) by the [Holy] Spirit into the wilderness (desert) to be tempted (tested and tried) by the devil. And He went without food for forty days and forty nights, and later He was hungry. And the tempter came and said to Him, If You are God’s Son, command these stones to be made [loaves of] bread. But He replied, It has been written, Man shall not live and be upheld and sustained by bread alone, but by every word that comes forth from the mouth of God. When Jesus,  tempted toward sin or toward an outward distraction—after forty days and forty nights, in the wilderness, by the devil himself—he simply turned away from that sin.

Then the devil took Him into the holy city and placed Him on a turret (pinnacle, gable) of the temple sanctuary. And he said to Him, If You are the Son of God, throw Yourself down; for it is written, He will give His angels charge over you, and they will bear you up on their hands, lest you strike your foot against a stone. Jesus said to him, On the other hand, it is written also, You shall not tempt, test thoroughly, or try exceedingly the Lord your God. When Jesus, tempted toward sin or toward an outward distraction—after forty days and forty nights with no food, in the holy city on a turret of the temple sanctuary, by the devil—He simply turned away from that sin.

Again, the devil took Him up on a very high mountain and showed Him all the kingdoms of the world and the glory (the splendor, magnificence, preeminence, and excellence) of them. And he said to Him, These things, all taken together, I will give You, if You will prostrate Yourself before me and do homage and worship me. Then Jesus said to him, Be gone, Satan! For it has been written, You shall worship the Lord your God, and Him alone shall you serve. When Jesus, tempted toward sin or toward an outward distraction—after forty days and forty nights with no food and being hungry-up on a very high mountain, by the devil—He simply turned away from that sin. And this is where i realized i had been missing the whole point of this. And as He turned, He drew nearer to the Lord. The little boy turned to his mother where he knew he would find safety and security. Jesus turned to the Word, to His Father where He knew He would find His safety and security. That’s how it becomes that simple.

Oh…, Remember my seriously remark, “It’s NOT that simple, YOU DON”T just turn away? And even if i could then what?” Matthew 4:11 answers it clearly, Then the devil departed from Him, and behold, angels came and ministered to Him. It’s that simple!

At my best i am very weak. If i, in my weakness, attempt to attack my enemies, i will often find myself wounded. Just as frequently, i will even find myself defeated.

You are a hiding place for me; You, Lord, preserve me from trouble, You surround me with songs and shouts of deliverance. Selah [pause, and calmly think of that]! Psalm 32:8 (AMP)



How about neither? Both sound painful with the only difference being this. A slow fire takes time and as for blaze of glory, well i’ve never heard it referred to in any way except that “he went out in a blaze of glory.” I’m not ready to “Go Out” so i guess it’s slow fire.  What am i talking about? Simply this, all the troubles in my life—my job, my health, my outer failings—are really God’s way of detaching me from my old nature. And right there i probably lost a few readers or listeners who didn’t want to hear that. Sorry but all my not wanting to hear it, all my not believing it, all my arguing with it, doesn’t change it.

Flames backgroundGod desires for my soul to be pure. He purifies it by His Wisdom just as a refiner purifies metal in the furnace. Fire is the only thing which can purify gold. The fire gradually consumes all that is impure or earthly. The fire must melt and dissolve the dross by force so that it can rid the gold of every impure particle. Time and time again, the gold is cast into the furnace until it has lost every trace of pollution.

But how many times must I be plunged back into the fire? My answer, far, far more times than seems necessary. Yet… the Forger sees impurities no one else can. There does come a time, when the Forger can find no more dross that contaminates the gold. When the fire has perfected purity the fire no longer touches it. If the gold remained in the furnace for years, its spotlessness would not be improved nor its substance diminished! Now the gold is fit for the most exquisite workmanship.

In the future, if the gold should get dirty and seem to lose its beauty, it is nothing more than an accidental impurity which touches only the surface. This dirt is of no hindrance to the use of the gold vessel. This impure particle which attaches itself to the surface is a far cry from having corruption deep within the hidden nature of the gold.

God is my Father, would ever hurt me. He just separates me from those things i love in the wrong way. i grumble and complain and even cry like a baby when God removes something or someone from my life, but truth be told i would cry a lot more if i experienced the long-term effects that  my wrong attachments could cause me.

my daily life is not contrary to my Father’s will. my occupation is not contrary to the surrendering of my self to His will. my surrendering, includes all the activities of my daily life. Whether it’s studying, reading, teaching, earning a living, doing business, or whatever… i am accepting to whatever it is that comes into my life each day, each hour, each moment. Whatever happens in my life is, in itself, His will. Nothing comes to me but that it comes from Him, goes through Him and most certainly end in Him.

i am no longer afraid of these times as they seem to have a cleansing effect for me. I shouldn’t be overwhelmed and upset when my way is obscure and there appears to be nothing but darkness around me. I must not imagine that i am lacking in the presence of God, that He has left me or does not love me.

Hebrews 12:29 (MSG) ed… Do you see what you’ve got? An unshakable kingdom! And do you see how thankful you must be? Not only thankful, but brimming with worship, deeply reverent before God. For God is not an indifferent bystander. He’s actively cleaning house, torching all that needs to burn, and He won’t quit until it’s all cleansed. God himself is Fire!

my soul’s purity is increased in exact proportion to the loss of self! As long as I consider my self-nature in any way, some faults will continue to exist in me. But as i depart from my self, no faults can exist, and all is pure and innocence.

This one thing I know for sure, much more is required than just the efforts that i can make. What, is required is a move on the part of Almighty God Himself. This alone will accomplish purity and oneness.