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When The Time Comes

Posted: September 30, 2011 in The Quote, Wandering Thoughts

“I live not in dreams but in contemplation of a reality that is perhaps the future.” ―  Rainer Maria Rilke

Take note that is me. This is probably the most dramatic statement i have spoken about myself since doing these blogs. Maybe dramatic isn’t the word, perhaps clear, uncomplicated is a better choice. This is your father or your papa depending on who’s reading it. Ann Marie and i have been told ever since entering ministry that we were ahead of our time. It didn’t matter where we went it was always you’re ahead of your time. i didn’t understand the value of someone telling us that then, but perhaps they meant what Ranier says in the above quote. i am not a big dreamer, in fact i don’t have a dream. To me a dream is just a thought that didn’t get enough effort to become a reality. i spend no time contemplating anything that i don’t first see as a reality that, as Ranier says, is perhaps the future. Some people do nothing but dream and if that works for them, then that’s okay. i like to create realities and if i can’t create one, in the past i would search out a big one and become a part of it. Example, one day while walking along a pier in Seattle Washington we saw a portable oven that looked old and interesting. Turns out it was used in London England and the baked various things in it on the street. It had been converted to propane and was now used for cinnamon rolls. i looked at Ann Marie and said “i want that oven but i want to do baked potatoes in it. Having no money and i had no job as well annnnnnd…. the oven not being for sale could have caused me to dismiss the whole idea… or… i could have just dreamed about it. No we continued to call the man with the oven until one day he said yes. We found someone who thought the idea was a s good as we did or at least enough to loan us $10,000 dollars to make contemplation a reality. We opened London Oven Eatery and baked thousands of potatoes before we sold the business to a Tai Restaurant which kept the oven and the baked potatoes for years. Yea i know a Tia restaurant…. go figure it was agreat idea. No… i do not dream i contemplate realities that will and do occur in the future. It’s the God in me who is all the while effectually and fervently at work in me creating and energizing me to will and to do His good work. Contemplating realities is what Ann Marie and i do, the only question is which one will occur next.

Unfulfilled dreams can leave us without hope. The word says, “hope deferred makes the heart-sick.” Job 8:13 says That’s what happens to all who forget God… all their hopes come to nothing. i get tired, i get worn out, i get burned out when i forget God. Losing hope has nothing to do with the amount of time or work that i am doing, it’s the lack of relationship with God. When i say forget God, i don’t mean gone, no more belief in, it’s more like out of sight out of mind.

David said in Psalm 16:9 I’m happy from the inside out, and from the outside in, I’m firmly formed. Ann Marie asked me if i was happy. i let the silence linger long enough for me to avoid answering. It’s just one more question that i don’t have an answer for. Am i happy has so many levels to it. Webster’s says, happy is delighted, pleased, or glad. A synonym of happy is contented. My answer is yes, yes i am relatively happy. Would i like some things to change or improve… some situations, absolutely.

i am to give my entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help me deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes. Not “NOW.” So ed… remember it’s not about you and it’s not about now, but when the time comes I will help you deal with whatever hard things come up. i am in a season of intentional focus to see what God is doing, where He is doing it and with whom He is doing it.  “then gradually, without noticing it,  i will live along some distant day into the answer.”

“It is always what I have already said: always the wish that you may find patience enough in yourself to endure, and simplicity enough to believe; that you may acquire more and more confidence in that which is difficult, and in your solitude among others. And for the rest, let life happen to you. Believe me: life is right, in any case.” ―  Rainer Maria Rilke

Life is right in any case when it’s life in Christ. Otherwise life can be very wrong.

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Unable to Live

Posted: September 29, 2011 in The Quote, Wandering Thoughts

“… keep growing quietly and seriously throughout your whole development; you cannot disturb it more rudely than by looking outward and expecting from OUTSIDE REPLIES to questions that only your INMOST feeling in your most HUSHED HOUR can perhaps answer. ― Rainer Maria Rilke

This guy has a way of stirring me up, not as a revelation but as a confirmation and he does it again with the quote above. Not to worry there will not be another week on it. Continuing where i left off. “which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. ” STOP!!  What are you talking about i would not be able to live them? If not me then who? I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. i am better than some and yes worse than others but come on, “Not be able to live them? It’s apparent that i initially took offense at these words because what i read it to say was that i don’t get it, i am not mature enough for the answers, i have not lived long enough. i calmed down and read them again in my usual fashion, one word at a time. One word jumped off the page as though it were bolded, underlined and in red so as to get my attention. “I would not be able to… LIVE… them. Now that changes perspective. It also makes sense when i mull it over, chew on it or meditate on it to make it more spiritual. i am struggling to live in what i know now so why do i think i need more. Rainer is right and i imagine God is just chuckling at this moment with some words like, “yes my son, read on, meditate some more, I love you but your just not ready for more “NOW.” Ephesians 2:2 Watch what God does, and then you do it, like children who learn proper behavior from their parents. Mostly what God does is love you. Keep company with him and learn a life of love. Observe how Christ loved us. His love was not cautious but extravagant. He didn’t love in order to get something from us but to give everything of himself to us. Love like that. my gut tells me that in those words lies part of why i have unresolved issues and questions of the heart.

And the point is, to live everything. Yes that is the point to “LIVE” not just exist. LIVE EVERYTHING, not just observe everything. Live: to practice, represent, or exhibit in one’s life: what i have been exhibiting is existence, observation. Ephesians 5:10 And try to learn [in your experience] what is pleasing to the Lord [let your lives be constant proofs of what is most acceptable to Him].Take no part in and have no fellowship with the fruitless deeds and enterprises of darkness, but instead [let your lives be so in contrast as to] expose and reprove and convict them. And how about counting it as all joy? James 1:2-4 Consider it wholly joyful, my brethren, whenever you are enveloped in or encounter (unresolved issues) trials of any sort or fall into various temptations. Be assured and understand that the trial and proving of your faith bring out endurance and steadfastness and patience ( Be patient toward unresolved issues). But let endurance and steadfastness and patience have full play and do a thorough work, so that you may be [people] perfectly and fully developed [with no defects], lacking in nothing.then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.”

“Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.” Live along some distant day into the answer.

Then, i like David asked, What am I doing in the meantime, Lord? Hoping, that’s what I’m doing.. hoping. I recently realized that the idea of me losing hope is not necessarily the case. It seems to be more of a seasonal change than lost hope. i am coming into a season change or i might say, a course adjustment. Jesus said, “I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you.” my questions and insistence on finding the answers have been just that, heavy and ill-fitting … because i have exposed my heart to things other than the word and sayings of God. In small but significant ways and some even under the guise of being Godly.

“Hear, ed my son, and receive my sayings, and the years of your life shall be many. I have taught you in the way of skillful and godly Wisdom [which is comprehensive insight into the ways and purposes of God]; I have led you in paths of uprightness. When you walk, your steps shall not be hampered [your path will be clear and open]; and when you run, you shall not stumble.” Proverbs 4:10-12

Matthew 11:29 Jesus says, “Walk with Me and work with Me — Watch how I do it.” He says, this is what I do, it’s important to me so it’s important for you. “Learn the unforced rhythms of grace.” Ranier captures these words knowingly or unknowingly when he says, “then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.”

Learn – Acquire experience – Acquire ability – Acquire skill

Unforced – Not resulting from undue effort.

Rhythms – A specific kind of such a pattern

Grace – favor rendered by one who need not do so

Love the Questions

Posted: September 28, 2011 in The Quote, Wandering Thoughts

“A person isn’t who they are during the last conversation you had with them – they’re who they’ve been throughout your whole relationship.”― Rainer Maria Rilke

Before i begin today i need to add to the unresolved issues of my heart. In 1985 i taught on Proverbs 4:20-24 My son, attend to my words; consent and submit to my sayings. Let them not depart from your sight; keep them in the center of your heart. For they are life to those who find them, healing and health to all their flesh. Keep and guard your heart with all vigilance and above all that you guard, for out of it flow the springs of life. I got it!

For they… They are the words and sayings of God. They are life regardless of me, but in order for them to be life to me i must find them. i must find them in my heart not just my mind. Healing and health are in those words and sayings as well, but again only if i find them. The verse starts with ATTEND! Attend is to take care or charge of, to apply oneself. i am to apply myself to the word. i am to SUBMIT! Submit is to give over or yield to the power or authority of. i am to yield to the authority of the sayings. And then the words that a loving Father would give to a son or daughter so as to keep them safe,”Let them not depart from your sight; keep them in the center of your heart.” And then a second time He says, Keep and guard your heart with all vigilance and above all that you guard. my head knowledge is not going to get the job done. Ranier says to be patient toward the unresolved issues of my heart, whether he knew the fullness of his thoughts and words or not is unknown, but… the idea lines up with this proverb.

“and try to love the questions themselves,” Try to love the unresolved issues, the questions themselves being the unresolved issues. Serious problem. Sometimes all i have are questions, and i do not love them, but… i love answers, well, most of the time. i have asked so many questions that they have talked me out of what i believe sometimes. So many questions that i have doubts about most things at one time or another. Yet there are times when i have peace and i am not searching for answers and so maybe i can love the questions if i change them from questions that need immediate answers to “questions that are treasures when left to discover over time.” Ranier said, “like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue.”  i don’t have to break down the door to every locked room.

Do not now seek the answers, i am spending so much time seeking the answers that i have sometimes forgotten the question. It’s as though the answer is my destiny or at least a destination of some degree. i don’t think that it’s the end but it certainly is for me, a place to arrive at, if for no other reason than to satisfy myself. Without answers i feel left out, lost, out of control. Matthew 11:27 Jesus resumed talking to the people, but now tenderly. “The Father has given me all these things to do and say. This is a unique Father-Son operation, coming out of Father and Son intimacies and knowledge. No one knows the Son the way the Father does, nor the Father the way the Son does. But I’m not keeping it to myself; I’m ready to go over it line by line with anyone willing to listen. If i am constantly asking questions and seeking the answers how well do i listen? i must admit i like the words Ranier uses when he says, “Do not NOW seek.” That three-letter word “NOW” in a way makes this doable. i see it as a small adjustment, (and as it said in a movie i recently watched, i could be just one adjustment away from whatever i desire.) it reminds me of the question, “How do you eat an elephant… one bite at a time. i am a one bite at a time person, i admit it may be a big bite, but none the less it’s one bite. i wake up every day grateful for this day and i try to take every thought captive to this day. Even in that attempt there are more than enough questions regarding this very day. Matthew 6:30-34 If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don’t you think he’ll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I’m trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God’s giving. People who don’t know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works (i do know!). Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Nowhere do i read God-questions. In fact God-initiative, provisions, and realities are the answers, they are absolutes. Don’t worry about missing out. You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. And this is where the rubber meets the road. “ed give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.”

“ed be patient toward all the unresolved issues of your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue.”

No Hurry – Be Patient

Posted: September 27, 2011 in The Quote, Wandering Thoughts

“Don’t be too quick to draw conclusions from what happens to you; simply let it happen. Otherwise it will be too easy for you to look with blame… at your past, which naturally has a share with everything that now meets you.” ― Rainer Maria Rilke

i am finding resolve in the words of the quote i shared. It’s like a deer who is stuck in the lights, i just keep reading it over and over. It’s almost as though the last line of the quote is coming true before i even get to it, “i am gradually, without noticing it, living along some distant day into the answer.” It’s bringing the questions to an end, i can see more, in fact not only can i see more but i can hear more. i am not in such a hurry to find answers, oh they are not miracle words, effort on my part is required, but they are words of hope. When the questions subside then hope shows itself, expectations take a step up. Expectations, not about what i am going to do, nor what others may do, but about who i am and who i have the potential to be. i must have more than just desire to know Him. i want more than just talk about Him. i am finding my foot steps one at a time and they lead to a place ahead, not behind. One of the things about doing a daily blog is that it can become narrow, but for me when i get a thought i begin a post and then day by day i add to it until it comes maturity and the right time to post it. It is more of a journey or a process versus just spewing my thoughts for that day. i say all that for the purpose of saying that by the time i actually post on a topic regarding my life i may or may not have lived in it for as much as a month or as little as a day. So like me, these posts are works in progress and often times i have already made adjustments according to a understanding prior to the post.

Now regarding the Quote… “Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.”

Breaking It Down…

Be patient – Sounds a lot like “Be still” or “Let patience” which i have heard over and over during the past five years. Psalm 46:10 Let be and be still, and know (recognize and understand) that I am God. Not that Ranier knew God, as i have been unable to find anything that says he did or did not. But, i have to believe that he got his words from somewhere and there are mentions of a searching for God or something more in his life. Maybe he had found God and was in the place where i find myself sometimes? toward – in the direction of. all –  the whole number of , every. that is unsolved – not firm in purpose or intent. in your heart – If i could go by my heart i don’t think i would have unresolved issues. It’s my mind that causes me the most pain. Doubt, condemnation, discouragement, failures, disappointments, unmet expectations, loneliness, unknown fear, all of which i know are just well dressed lies. Here’s the thing… i say my mind but these are actually, issues of the heart. If in my heart i really understood the Father’s love for me these things would not exist because out of the heart… so if i say doubt, there is doubt in my heart, and if i say loneliness there is loneliness in my heart. Thus unresolved issues. “i am to be patient toward all that is unsolved in my heart.” No, see i don’t work that way, i want to resolve the issues and i want to do so now. Why… so i don’t have to keep dealing with them!  James 1:2-3 Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don’t try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way.

ed be patient

ed be patient toward

ed be patient toward all

ed be patient toward all that is unresolved

ed be patient toward all that is unresolved in your heart!

“Ah, how good it is to be among people who are reading!”― Rainer Maria Rilke

“Do not assume that he who seeks to comfort you now, lives untroubled among the simple and quiet words that sometimes do you good. His life may also have much sadness and difficulty, that remains far beyond yours. Were it otherwise, he would never have been able to find these words” Rainer Maria Rilke

Another quote that stirs my heart. Recently i posted a quote and said it was now one of my favorites. i admittedly knew nothing of the man who spoke it. People usually do not ask me where i get the quotes i share, but, for whatever reason a few did this time. Most thought that Rainer Maria Rilke was a woman and asked who is she? All i knew was Rainer was a man, some kind of a poet and oh ya, he is dead. Hind sight says i should have known something about the person before placing such value on their words. i use many quotes but do not usually give them a personal endorsement. It is usually my intent to just throw them out there to stir up thought. i am going to share about Ranier today and in more detail about the quote that stirs me tomorrow.

As i began to look at Ranier’s life it did not take long to see why he would write those words. He had me at, “all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves.” He kept me with the rest.

The Quote… “Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.”

Rainer Maria Rilke was born in Prague as the son of Josef Rilke, a railway official and the former Sophie Entz. A crucial fact in Rilke’s life was that his mother called him Sophia. She forced him to wear girl’s clothes until he was aged five – thus compensating for the earlier loss of a baby daughter.

Rilke’s parents separated when he was nine.

His militarily inclined Father sent him at ten years old to the military academies of St. Pölten and Mahrisch-Weisskirchenn. At the military academy Rilke did not enjoy his stay, and was sent to a business school in Linz. He also worked in his uncle’s law firm.

In Munich he met the Russian intellectual Lou Andreas-Salome, an older woman, who influenced him deeply. In Florence, where he spent some months in 1898, Rilke wrote: “… I felt at first so confused that I could scarcely separate my impressions, and thought I was drowning in the breaking waves of some foreign splendor.” He spent some time in Italy, Sweden, and Denmark, and joined an artists’ colony at Worpswede in 1903. In his letters to a young would-be poet, which he wrote from 1903 to 1908, Rilke explained, that “nobody can counsel and help you, nobody. There is only one single way. Go into yourself. Search for the reason that bids you to write; find out whether you would have to die if it were denied you to write.” This caused me to pause and think for a moment… “there is only one single way. Go to God. Search for the reason that bids me to be a believer; find out whether i would have to die if it were denied me to follow Him.”

In 1901 Rilke married the young sculptress, Klara Westhoff, one of Auguste Rodin’s pupils. They had a daughter, Ruth, but marriage lasted only one year.
During this period Rilke composed in rhymed, metered verse, the second part of The Book of Hours . The work expressed his spiritual yearning. According to a story, Rilke heard in the wind the first lines of his elegies when he was walking on the rocks above the sea – “Who, if I cried out, would hear me among the angels’ hierarchies?”

Rilke believed in the coexistence of the material and spiritual realms, but human beings were for him only spectators of life, grasping its beauties momentarily only to lose them again. With the power of creativity an artist can try to build a bridge between two worlds, although the task is almost too great for a man.

Ranier is considered one of the most significant poets in the German language. His haunting images focus on the difficulty of communion with the unutterable in an age of disbelief, solitude, and profound anxiety. He died of leukemia on December 29, 1926. At the time of his death his work was intensely admired by many leading European artists, but was almost unknown to the general reading public.

“Perhaps all the dragons in our lives are princesses who are only waiting to see us act, just once, with beauty and courage. Perhaps everything that frightens us is, in its deepest essence, something helpless that wants our love.”