Posts Tagged ‘distractions’

With listening to approximately 16 hours of music every day i am finding many great songs that speak to me when i not just hear them but listen to them. i’m actually in the process of creating a playlist of songs by categories thus when i’m sensing fear i have a category with songs that help me through the fear. If i’m feeling lost or overwhelmed then there are categories of songs for them as well. The possibilities are endless. Music today is filled with life experiences and direction from the word as to how to make sure that my every thought is taken captive to the word.

Today i’ll share a song titled Blessings and it stirs me up to look at what i off the cuff consider to be trials or problem circumstances when i reality they just may be the exact thing i needed.

i have included the You Tube link for easy listening and i’m including the lyrics with a comment or two about the significance of the words i’m hearing. And one last detail… i’m personalizing the lyrics to me.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XQan9L3yXjc

i pray for blessings, i pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while i sleep
i pray for healing, for prosperity
i pray for Your mighty hand to ease my suffering
And all the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love me way too much to give me lesser things

(Every time i hear these words i immediately reevaluate what i’m praying for and specifically i’m determining if i’m asking for my will or God’s will to be done based on my words.)

‘Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

(When i hear these words i look back over the years and realize how many things i have learned through tears and sleepless nights.)

i pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear
i cry in anger when i cannot feel You near
i doubt your goodness, i doubt your love
As if every promise from Your word is not enough
And all the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that i’d have faith to believe

(When i hear these words they cause me to think on God’s mercy and Grace as i should know better than this but i have my moments, days and weeks.)

‘Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray me
When darkness seems to win
i know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not,
This is not my home
It’s not my home

(This is where i am reminded of God’s love for me and my responsibility to love others as myself.)

‘Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near

What if my greatest disappointments or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

( With these words i am reminded that there is no doubt that the things i call trials are absolutely His mercies in disguise.?

That’s the basics of how i listen to my music and apply it to my life. Often i get a little more detailed and add scripture verses. Then there are times when i have to listen to the song over and over until it takes me to the place where i should be verses the distraction that has captured my mind.

Ever felt lost? Alone? Frustrated? Scared? Unsure? Anxious? Trapped? Unfulfilled. Stuck in a dead-end job. Smothered by others expectations. Has there ever been a time when you didn’t have a clue what you wanted to do with your life and further that when it comes down to it you feel as thought you have no say in regards to it?

imagesBeen there… done that! Maybe not today or this week but not all that long ago. The worst part for me was that i was living the life that society and Christianity had always told me to live. They said it was the “right thing” to do.

i don’t know about you, but it turns out for me that, the “right thing” to do sucked the joy out of life. Perhaps that’s the epitome of becoming weary in well-doing?

Wasting my precious time doing things that i really didn’t want to be doing. Being afraid to express my uniqueness. Having fun on the weekends then dreading the upcoming week. Maybe you don’t have to imagine it at all, a few moments of satisfaction drowned out by a constant grind of activity?

Life should be… most anything other than what i’ve described above. i knew it could be and actually should be different, but i had no clue where to start. Mind you, i was a “Christian” and working full-time in ministry. But i spent my days wishing that things would change—that i could escape a life that didn’t seem to fit.

Forest Gump said, “My momma always said, Life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you’re gonna get.” That doesn’t sound so bad… if you like chocolate? But i know for a fact that i don’t care for many of the things inside the chocolates… such as bacon!

Am i to settle for a life that seems, somehow, to have just happened? That, in and of itself is ambiguous because nobody’s life has just happened. My life has been a series of choices, responses, actions, words etc., etc..

images-1I think most everyone has or maybe had an expectation of what our lives should be. From my daily mundane tasks to who i will become at some time in the future. Through-out my life i have had many ideas of what i want or thought i wanted from life. And when life doesn’t meet my expectations… i’m so disappointed even in small insignificant things. i can’t tell you how many times i have planned my days right down to the very last half-hour, but no matter how detailed, how perfectly calculated a day is planned, it seldom goes exactly as planned.

That’s not to say that every day is a disappointment. Not even close, especially since i have focused on not defining my days as good or bad days. Even on the days i need to be as perfectly put-together as possible, something is bound to occur that was not a part of my schedule. A train brings traffic to a stop. i find out that i forgot to put something on my calendar, a meeting goes longer than i anticipated, etc. And then let’s not forget that outside of these everyday things, there are the major life events that i think i have planned for but happen outside the parameters  that i have set for them. And then i find out that life or more importantly God has other plans.

Let me close today with two thoughts. First, i don’t want to get to the end of my life and find that i just lived the length of it. i want to have lived the width of it as well.

Secondly, Sometimes my expectations sell me short. Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. i wonder why i cling to my expectations, because the expected is just what keeps me steady. The expected’s just the beginning. The unexpected has been and still is what changes my life.