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Katie says, “Sometimes it hits me like a brick to the head. my life has been kinda insane.” That’s the way i feel when i come to the end of a year and begin to take one of these inventories of my life. As a kid i lived in 19 different places by the time i was 18. As an adult i’ve had 23 different addresses over 42 years. i’ve started a dozen or so different businesses. i have traveled frequently to beautiful places. i have done most of the things i have dreamed. i have more than the necessities of life. i have been and continue to live a very exciting and blessed life.

Katie goes on, “To me there is nothing spectacular about this everyday craziness, it is just the result of following Jesus into the impossible, doing the little i can and trusting Him to do the rest.” As i look back at all the moves, new businesses, serving in full-time ministry, and all the travel, much of it was following God into the impossible. The rest of the much of it… was due to pursuing position, titles, finances… all the things i felt i missed out on while growing up. All the things that i thought would make me different.

It is only in the past few years that i have realized that i can do nothing incredible, but i can follow God into impossible situations and He can do incredible things through me.

Without giving away to much of the book by sharing all the background for these next words there came a very important realization for me. The book says, “Before long her reluctance turned into anxious enthusiasm and she became excited to be the person who would share this dream with me.” Katie is speaking about her mother agreeing to go with her on her first trip to Uganda.

images-2These words caused me to remember the people, whom became excited to share my dreams with me. Ann Marie my wife, best friend and love has been my rock. She has shared every dream with me, supporting me all along the way. While it would be understandable if she wasn’t always excited about sharing my dreams she has never shown it. If she has ever been reluctant it has been hidden by her encouragement for me to pursue the life i dreamed.

Listening to chapter 1 again assured me that it was God’s plan for me to read this book as Katie shares, “I saw strength and depth of character in people’s eyes.” i immediately recalled my focus prayer for this year, “Lord teach my eyes to hear before they see.” You can learn a lot about a person and their life by looking into their eyes and just listening.

Chapter one is filled with many thoughts but one that stands out for me is where Katie shares about bed time with her children. It would last about an hour as the children would sing with all their hearts, laugh, cry and pray. She describes it as simply being with Jesus and that she could feel the presence of God there more strongly than ever before. This reminded her that she had one purpose in Uganda and in life, and that was to love. Her words reinforce in me the very same thoughts, although i am not in Uganda, but where ever i am, i have one purpose and that is to love. Love God with all my heart, mind soul and strength. To love others as myself and i sense that this is where God is working in me through this book. i feel like Peter when i say, “You know i love you Lord.” And i do in spite of falling short many times. But learning to love to myself so that i can share it with others… well there has been the rub.

Luke 12:48 says “From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked.” i have been given much.

Chapter 1 of this story about “Relentless Love and Redemption leaves me with this.

images-1God is making it clear that this is the place… here in Florida, for an unknown amount of time, is where i am supposed to follow Jesus, obey Him , and make my best effort, with His gracious help, to treat people with dignity and care for them unconditionally.




Several weeks ago i read 1Corinthians 2:9 (NKJV), “Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor have entered into the heart of man the things which God has prepared for those who love Him.”

my heart started pounding and my mind started racing. Nice right, but what does that mean? “ed’s “Eye has not seen,” nor has ed’s ear heard, nor have entered into the heart of ed the things which God has prepared for ed who loves Him.” 

Initially when i began looking at Proverbs 29:28 which said “those who can not see what God is doing, stumble all over themselves,” it seemed to make sense in that context the ed’s eye has not seen what God is doing. Then add the ear thing and the heart thing and it losses any congruity that i imagined. So… i put the verse away in a draft file and let it sit, expecting that if it was a God thing he would reveal more.

Honestly I forgot about it until now while looking through my drafts. i read it and the same thing, heart started pounding and my mind…. there was no shortage of thoughts. Once again i tried to make sense of it. NOTHING! ZIP, ZERO, NADA! But then I remembered the rest of Proverbs 29:28, “but those who attend to what He has revealed will be most blessed.”

Attend to…? Could it be…., no……, possibly…..? it can’t hurt. Attend to by reading the entire chapter of 1 Corinthians 2 and there was my answer.

i then decided to read 1 Corinthians 2:9 in more familiar words by going to the MSG. Of course i can’t get a single verse so i had to read 6-19.

We, of course, have plenty of wisdom to pass on to you once you get your feet on firm spiritual ground, (repositioning myself to do just that, get feet on firm spiritual ground) but it’s not popular wisdom, the fashionable wisdom of high-priced experts that will be out-of-date in a year or so. God’s wisdom is something mysterious that goes deep into the interior of his purposes. You don’t find it lying around on the surface. It’s not the latest message, but more like the oldest—what God determined as the way to bring out his best in us, long before we ever arrived on the scene. The experts of our day haven’t a clue about what this eternal plan is. If they had, they wouldn’t have killed the Master of the God-designed life on a cross. That’s why we have this Scripture text: No one’s ever seen or heard anything like this, Never so much as imagined anything quite like it— What God has arranged for those who love him.

But ed, you’ve seen and heard it because God by his Spirit has brought it all out into the open before you.

There are two types of questions. The first are good questions which get me good information. The second are great questions which get me transformation. Here’s my great question, “ed are you attending to what He has revealed?” my answer… yes, absolutely and it’s apparent because old things are passing away and all things are new!

Ecclesiastes 1:8 All things are weary with toil and all words are feeble; man cannot utter it. The eye is not satisfied with seeing, nor the ear filled with hearing.

i sat for about an hour today first awaking and asking God what i was to share today, then listening to a short message, then back to asking God.

i went back to the book of Ecclesiastes for lack of a clearer direction. Then i was stirred as i read verse eight in chapter one. It seemed very personal as though it said “ED ALL!” “Yes you ED!” “ALL THINGS ARE WEARY WITH TOIL!”

That seemed to resonate with me and seemingly goes along with “Please don’t ask me about my plans.” How so? i
The reason i ask God about His plans is so that i know what i am to do or what i will be doing and here He says, “ALL THINGS ARE WEARY WITH TOIL.” What i want to do is toil over something. i admit it, i can easily be a workaholic.

Later in the new testament Jesus says, “Come unto me ALL who are weary and heavy laden.” All those years pass and mankind still is weary with toil and looking at today i still am looking for something to toil over. It’s what i have done most of my life and still would do today if it were not for the Holy Spirit reminding me of these truths.

The verse goes on to say, “Ed your eye is not satisfied with seeing, nor your ear filled with hearing.

It’s true… regardless of where i am or what i am seeing i am looking past it to see more or something different. i have to work at seeing the moment and as i shared the other day sucking honey from the rock to get all that is right before me. Ann marie pointed that out to me while shopping the other day. i had picked out an outfit that i liked and thought she would like as well without any regard to size other than it was one size fits all, ALL! She tried it on to satisfy my desire for her to have this outfit. It did not fit and she said this to me. “I have lost a 135 pounds but ALL does not mean all.” She proceeded to explain that 135 pounds ago i would pick out things that were at that time a challenge for her to wear and now 135 pounds later i’m still picking out things that offer up the same challenge as back then. The eye is not satisfied with seeing. It was and is not intentional, but none the less it seems to be true.

As for my ear bing filled with hearing and it not being satisfied, that’s even more true, but i am purposely working on that daily. It is why i take one verse or one thought and beat the daylights out of it or as i’ve already said, suck the honey out of the rock. i am in no hurry to read through the Bible, in fact, i will probably die never having accomplished that task. If i can get one verse and just chew and chew and chew it some more, then i will have put this idea of my ear being full and not satisfied to rest.

In closing verse nine says “The thing which has been, it is what will be again, and that which has been done, is that which will be done again; and THERE IS NOTHING NEW under the sun.

Yet every day all day i, like most others that i know are in search of something new rather than taking a closer look at what i am seeing a little longer and to what already fills my hearing listening a little closer. If for no other reason than to discern what the cause and effect of what i’m seeing and hearing will be.

Is it any wonder that my words are feeble if i do not see and hear with any depth when there is so much set before me and the Father is inviting me to come and dine. Not snack but dine, Caribbean style, for hours and hours, eating and resting, eating and resting, seeing and absorbing, hearing and comprehending.